Friday, May 05, 2006 @ 8:54 AM
I went to bed as early as 9pm last nite. my whole body felt so weak and i soo needed the early rest. Watched the American Idol results show with Trisya and i dozed off shortly after.
Have you all readers ever caught in a situation where u suddenly feel so lost and confused???
I do. Now.
I somehow feel part of me is missing. I feel my life changing. Drastically. I feel my heart pounding. Faster than before. N i live every single day, hoping tat somethin better will surface. But till now, no avail. All tis while, i have been hoping & hoping till i suddenly feel, should i still hope for more. But my love keep me going and i shall not stop hoping till the day comes when i am certainly sure, there's no more alternative route to resolution.
My frens have been excellent.Perfect in fact. My family have been my strength, and they still are. My soulmates have been by guardian angels and they have always been. N if you ask me,wat else if not complete?? i would honestly say, my love life havent been at its best stage now.
God is fair. Nothin in life is easy. I noe cos i believe very much in Him. I pray everyday hoping for the best. Like i say, have faith. A part of me will always be missing till the day everythin gets back in place. N i strongly believe, it will. i juz hope you will do your part. N i noe you will, cos i am here, waiting. N you should noe by now how hard it have been for us.
Well, tat is life rite?? not everday is a bed of roses. Obstacles in life makes u a better person. Overcome it with a clear mind and an open heart.
Ask me, how i managed to go thru tis??
I proudly tell you, im blessed with frens who never, i repeat, NEVER, leave me to cry alone.
Cos everytime i shed a single tear, there's always someone to wipe it away.
To you gerls & Ratna, thank you very much for everythin. Words cannot express juz how much u all mean to me. Thank you.
N mummy, u have been the best so far. every single day, yr phone calls made me believe how much you care for me. God can't be all over watching us, tats y HE created mothers. To nurture and guide us thru life. Thank you mum.
Till then, im looking forward to my Pastamania dinner later with Eila & Ratna.
Now, tats somethin to smile about!
Gd Day peepz!
