Tuesday, June 13, 2006 @ 10:25 AM
it all happens without me realising.
I have soo much faith in Allah.
I wonder where all my faith were tat nite.
Taking my life away was the best resolution, i thought.
N God forbid!! Im still alive.
I passed out and went clueless.
Y is tis happening?? Y am i goin thru tis patch in life which i dun think i deserved??
Mayb its not meant to be. Maybe he's not mine.
Those words kill me in an instance! I went numb.
Tears have no meaning anymore. It flows freely like a river, never ending.
I never expected it to be tis hard. Never expected my love life to be such a turmoil.
If he's not mine, y am i still holding on??
Y am i still letting myself suffer?? Y am i still hoping for miracles??
Allah hear me rant!
Give me strength, show me the way!
Im lost in this path and i wish i to break away.
So pls give me faith once more, i've always believe in YOU.
i dun wanna be a murderer....
I dun want to leave tis world and murder my own life away...
I still wish to live and love.
Pls dear Allah, bless me. Dun let love control my mind.
I have other wonderful things around.
Let me a failure in love. I willingly accept.
But dun take away my faith.
Dear Allah, bless me.
Pls.
P.S : Dear readers, im not gonna blog for awhile. I need time to be by myself and recuperate. Things have been rough and i need to concentrate on building my life once more. Tag or email me, i will reply insyallah. For now, its time to feel love once more, from frens and those who never stop caring for me. I will blog again once im fine. Take care all.
