It is said tat the one you love most will be the one hurting you bad.
i was exchanging mails with one of my gal fren, she is suffering from a major heartbreak. I hope she will get better. I pray hard tat nobody will have to go thru the path tat i went thru.
The tears i shed, the heatbreak i suffered and the accussations i faced, its soo painful tat i can never describe the feeling ever!!
But at least, i feel the love once more, even if its only for a short while.
Perhaps tis wat life is all about. Love comes with heartbreaks. *sigh*
I decided to quit blogging soon.
I feel tat some things are often misunderstood just by the way it is being written.
Just like my entries for 'him'. He afterall may not even noe tat i am writing tat for him.
He can probably even ask,
" did u mention any names in your blog to say its me? " ..... Well, i thought some people can just sensed. Mayb im wrong.
I read my tagboard. Lots of inspirational words from people i call frens.
Perhaps wat my best fren said is true, i should juz give up and move on. He doesn't seem to appreciate nor even notice wat i wrote was for 'him'.
Its heartbreaking. It realli is.
So many years gone to waste. When i finally thought that i could start a new life again, i was once more dissapointed.
The only way i could relate to him, is thru writing in my blog. Not only for him to read, to people who avidly reads my blog as well. My page uploads rank from 200 - 300 a day and im puzzled, there are people who are still interested in my damn boring life. N these people, besides the ones im close him will always wonder .. who is the 'him'.
Till now, my heart is still aching. I was sick the last 2 days. Still am now. My body is weak and i often get terrible headaches. Trust me, its killing me inside.
I will be away during the whole month of August. I wonder if i can cope being away from my loved ones, even if its only 30 days. *sob sob*
But if still, im sick and weak like wat i am now, i'll give it a miss and perhaps take a month unpiad leave to get back in shape once more. Yeah, mayb.
To Trisya my sis, im sorry.. *sigh*
To 'him'... u may not feel and understand wat im goin thru. u r always in my prayers, in my heart and in me.
To all, take care and God Bless.
I need to BREATHE once more.
Pls, spare me some space.
