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So much things happening in my life. I sumtimes wonder, where do i get the strength still to carry on. Then i realise, its love from people around me. Last week was hell. Like i always mentioned, my mum is everythin Trisya and myself is left with.N i hate seein her cry! I hate seeing her in despair! I hate seein her goin thru a hard time. As im typing tis, my heart is aching. Although things are much better now, im still very hurt over wat had happened. My mum went thru a rough time. As she was bz at the stall last week, my maid who was helping out there was caught by the MOM. Yeah, n my mum was brutally fined ( more than 10k ) and my maid was sent home. Even the maid at home was taken away. Wat does tat means???NO MAID FOR US AT ALL !!!!! Can you all imagine the hell my family went thru??? I dun think anyone would UNLESS they were there, lookin at how my family and i had to overcome the whole turmoil. I am not a bit embarassed to write everythin here. Y shld i rite? It shows tat im not onli proud to share my happiness. I live in REALITY NOT A FAIRYTALE. Therefore life isn't always a bed of rosses. It was hell like i say. I have to sacrifice my weekend, waking up at 3am every morning to help mummy at the stall and stayed there still 4pm on both days. I have to, my mum needed me most at tis time. My elder sis, juz had an operation last week were not spared either. She was also bz helping out instead of resting at home. She had to look after her kids as well and i noe how painful it was for her the last few days. Trisya was home doing housework. My poor little sister have to clean up and settle all chores at home. But at the end of it, we were all contented. Even though the whole family was tired, we managed to pull through the ordeal. We fought as a family and seek NO help from others. Some just totally wash their hands on things. But Allah have always been fair. Mummy told us the other nite, tis is a test from ALLAH. Insyallah, it will go by soon enuff. I saw with my own very eyes how my mum fought the ordeal by herself. Forking out the cash just to pay her fines, again WITHOUT ANY HELP. How she woke up every morning to the stall and still continue werking at the stall. Tell me peepz, how can i not help my very own mum. My mum who's been there for me when the whole world was against me. She's afterall, my mum. I share her grief and her pain. I dont even care if i wasted my weekends and have to werk 7 days a week !! As much as i can help, i will. God have always been fair. My increment came just in time for me to be eligeble to apply for my own maid. It came sooner than expected as it was supposed to be by the end of tis month. The company is doing well and the incremenent came in handy. Insyallah in a week's time, things will be fine again at home. This have been the greatest obstacle so far. Im glad its finally coming to an end. Thank u soo much to all that have been there for me & my family. Jay have been a wonderful soul. He's been my best fren all tis while. Eila & Efni have never stopped asking abt my well being. Anna have been constantly sms'ing me since i was quiet from the blogging world, asking me to take care. Ernie was kind enuff to share everythin im goin thru and Miss Heidi, have never once made me feel tat im alone. To all mentioned above. My greatest gratitude. To Mak & Abah, thank you so much for the kind thoughts and never ending prayers for my family. Pls dun shed anymore tears from now on. It breaks me seein u both in despair. Trisya, i hope she's coping well. Although i noe the World Cup is sumhow occupying her time.Im sorry she have to go thru so much at such a young tender age. I hope sumhow, it will make her a much better person. To all, me being away from the blogging world doesn't mean im enjoying every bit of life. No peeps, me & family is slowly picking up the pieces of our NEARLY broken lifes. For now, alhamdulillah, things are slowly in place once more.. One thing for sure, i will never let my mum shed anymore tears. That will be the last time im gonna c her suffer. I pray to Allah, begging HIM to let me suffer instead rather than having to c my mum in despair. To whom who thought me & family couldn't make it. Im sorry to let you all down. My family DONT have to be pias, talk religion and pray at nite acting 'ustaz' to gain respect and influence people. Allah is fair. Trust me, HE is. Its all abt the heart at the end of the day. No use praying 24/7 and at the same time bitching abt others. If ur heart is free from jealousy and hatred, tats the best gift God could ever install in you. All ordeal we are facing now is a test from God. Alhamdulillah, we overcome all tis. Not totally but with our very own effort without any help. When i will blog again, im not sure. im still bz helping my family and getting everything to normal once more. N yes, im gonna be away for 2 days celebrating Efni's birthday. But one thing for sure...... I'm one tired bitch.
