Beloved Trisya,

U make me cry early tis morning while reading yr entry.

Im at werk ok !!!! N now u spoil my make up!!! = )

U dun have to mention who and i noe the person u r refering to.

Things haven't been at its best. But its been indeed a learning experience or all of us.

Remember wat we talked abt yesterday in the cab back home and wat i promise you???

The only thing tat keep holding me back now is you.

I noe, i can't stay far away from you, for long.

But then again, we must always remember and believe.

No matter how far i go, u r always my sister i will never ever let go.

U r my life, my heart and my soul. Nobody can change the fact. Noboby.

We only have each other now or to be precise, i only have you tat i can trust.

I only have you seeing me crying every nite to sleep. I only have you seeing me falling sick in bed all thru this years. I only have you who till now believe tat my decision is somehow rite.

I only have you my little sister.

I dun care if the whole world is against me.

I dun care watever judgements they have for me.

I dun care if they think im a bitch.

As long as you noe, the truth.

I am sooo sorry you have to go thru all this turmoil. Im sorry if i let you down this time.

Im sorry my decision is final.

There is nothin in the world tat i wouldn't do for you.

But sis, i have to do this cos i dun want you to grow up watching the bad side of life.

No sweetheart, i never want your life to be like mine. I want you to grow up not hurting anyone like i did. I want you to study hard and strive yr way thru.

I love you juz like how much you love me baby sis, but im sorry i have to dissapoint you this time round.

We will always be as close as ever. We will always be together and we will always be sisters.

I love you Trisya.

Please, i hope you respect my decision this time.

If Daddy is alive tis very day, our lives wouldn't be this way.

But since God took away the most precious person in our lives, we have nobody else Trisya, we only have each other to fight for ourselves.

Its not abt how far im gonna be from you, its abt how much we both love each other.

N yes darling, i still believe in the word love.

Cos as im typing this, my keyboard is filled with my tears.

Allah noes juz how painful it is knowing tat i have to go thru this.

But y im crying this much,

is knowing how hurt you are knowing the decision tat im making.

I will never wanna hurt the person i love most,

My own flesh and blood.

N im sorry u have to keep it to urself and put up a brave front cos u never wanna let me c u cry.

Honey, im sorry.

I promise, things will be better.

I juz need time.

N pls dun beg, cos it will only make things harder.

So please remember, no matter how far i go,

I always love you.