I can't do anythin abt it.

Frens told me to take my tagboard off my blog.

I dun find a need to.

Its time we face reality and let people say their mind out.

I am practically so occupied with werk and seldom at my desk tis days.

The only time i can blog or perhaps find time to read my frens' blogs would be at the early hours, like now.

But i was never left out on the latest updates.

Thanks to people like anna & effa who constantly stood up for me each time i was being "attacked"

Enemy, you can say all you want. i will be lying if i claim tat i am not a bit affected. Not only i am, my clan of frens were boiling mad as well. Every single day without fail, i will never missed receiving phonecalls and sms'es from concerned frens. All have different names in their minds on who could be the tagger. But as for me, they could be many possibilities, it could be anyone. it could even be your own fren pretending to be your enemy OR enemy could be my real life enemy itself.

Tat i can never conclude.

I spoke to Efni yesterday and tat fren never failed to make me see things in a clearer view. She gave me hope and cleared so many things tat i've been confused with all tis while. Thanks dear, thanks for the clarification. I realli appreciate the effort made. *hugs*

Then i met Ernie for coffee after werk. I was totally drained by then after a long day at werk. We talked. She advice me on things which im still unaware of. She gave me confidence and told me to move on and leave my past behind. I wish i could babe, i want my life back. A peaceful one.

I came back home and read the tags left by enemy.

Let me summarise this for the last time.

I wish and hope enemy, u could stop tis act of urs. I have never come across such a vicious hate tagger as u. U r not only cruel and evil, u r insensitive at all. Its me u r not hapi with and u r dragging my whole set of frens in tis. U even mention my Daddy! *sob* Tat is totally unacceptable. Even things Jay does outside, there is no reason u should be publishing it in my tagboard. He have every right to live his life and carry on. Wats the use of reporting to me? N why the hell r u following him around?? Spying and telling me abt wat he's doing outside?? Wat can i do?? Why don't you insted write abt wat im doing ? Or mayb mine is too boring for u to tag abt??

Let me tell u tis enemy, he have every right to do wat he wants. Tat goes the same for me.

Yes, may b the way i handle things may b different. It been eons since i last had a blast outside. Its been ages since i had frens and have a splendid dinner or outing. Its been awhile since i had my shopping spree or a meet up sessions ith my gerls.

I had been spending time settling the apartment and bz at werk or at home sleeping away as my health havent been at its best.

Therefore, there's nothing interesting to write abt.

Jay have always been an outgoing person. It doesnt mean tat since our relationship failed, he have to stay indoors and wail his days away. He have his own life to carry on. Let him move on for goodness sake, if tat is the way he's keeping up with his life.I wonder wat do u gain scrutinizing every bit of his movements.

Telling me all details abt him wont conclude anythin. We are over. For heaven sake, he did not dumped me. We broke off with a mutual agreement and on a good term basis. Like he claimed, its better now then later. I never wanna blame our families or any other parties for the downfall of the relationship. Its all abt us. Abt me & him. Mainly, its abt me.

I am hoping tis would stop. I am shocked seeing the numbers in my stat counter. Yesterday alone, it was nearly 400 uploads. Me on the other hand, only managed to view my blog twice. The chaos in my tagboard had caused many interested parties to have a sneak preview of my life. It sure does. N trust me, its gonna be over realli soon.

The reason why im writing all this is never to be defensive.

I just wish readers have a clearer picture of wats going on.

True enuff, its over between us.

N moving on have never been tis hard.

My past with him will always be blissful memories we share. The bad experiences are supposed to be a learning lesson for me to move on.

I have nothin, absolutely nothin tat i am sore abt over the failure of tis relationship.

I have happy moments. I have my rainy days.

But as a person, i believe it happens to all couples, same goes for us.

The only problem tat we are facing thru out the relationship, is too much involvement from so many unrelated parties.

Tats why the relationship is no more personal and private.

I am moving on. Trust me, its not easy. But werk have been piling up and therefore it have sumhow kept me occupied.

The reason for me not going out with frens and been mostly indoors is due to my poor health and my bz schedule on getting the apartment ready for myself and Emily.

So for once, after tis long entry of mine, i hope we will be spared from all slanders and humiliations.

I think tats enuff for now. More of it would be uninteresting for my readers, believe me enemy. The more u tag, the more u r giving urself away.

I am spending too much time on tis entry now. I have to get back to my piles of werk.

Before i end tis, pls enemy, leave us alone.

I am not taking my tagboard off as tat is a way my bloggers reach out to me. I don't want my frens and bloggers to miss the chance to say their inspiring words for me. i need tat to move on for now. Not words like yours tat kill not only me & jay BUT also my fellow frens.

To u enemy, spare us some space.

Let us move on once more as individuals.

It would be greatly appreciated.