Have u ever feel soo terribly bad when someone tat means so much to you just walk away???

Well, i did.

N i caused so much tears at home.

My mum cried. Everyone cried.

I didnt even break fast last nite.

I was forced to drink a cup of water and then i just wanna sleep my sorrows away.

I was realli hurt.

I felt hurt. I felt betrayed.

My mum was sick n yet she stayed by me till the morning she left for werk.

I am still fasting altho i havent had a bite since last nite.

I wish i could be a little bit stronger.

I have to admit now.

I have lost my faith.

Finally.

The only thing im holding on now is gone.

My faith is gone.

I could not accept the fact tat it was soo easy for him.

I wonder, why i can't accept the fact tat things are not meant to be.

I guess its time somebody made tat move and put a full stop to everything.

But i just wanna make it clear tat no matter what happen, this heart still love.

I heard it with my own ears. So does my family.

So let me tell you this....

Dear IN,

i respect your decision and im letting you move on.

If tat is wat you want, i grant you your wish even though it hurts every bit of me.

Im letting the whole world noe tat i am respecting the most outrageous decision u r making after 7 long years of knowing each other.

True enuff, i think its time we both move on.

Its gonna be realli hard for me. But i hope i can pull through.

I noe u r gonna move on realli fine without me.

N i hope i will too, even if its not easy, but i pray i will.

It doesnt matter to u tat after 7 long years, its finally ending for us.

But it matters a lot to me.

Like i say, im holding on to wat u have promised me.

N forever i will.

If ever u happen to read tis,

I just want you to noe.

U hurt me real bad tis time.

But after hearing wat u say over and over again to me and my family,

Im convinced enuff tat u have nothin else left to share together.

So let me tell u this,

I grant u your wish.

But remember, its never easy for me as it is for u.

But if Allah is fair enuff, HE will make the best decision for me.

N if this is the decision HE is making for the both of us,

Then even how bad and terrible i may b feeling now,

I accept.

Its gonna be a totally new life for me & you.

Thank you for being there for me all this while.

I can never thank you enuff.

But from the bottom of my heart,

Pls, take care & i pray for your happiness now and forever.

As for me,

I am fighting hard to get back to my feet once more.

I wanna move on.

N nobody will pull me down again this time.

I had been at my lowest the last few days.

Its time i make life better for myself and for my family.

Going back to werk tomorrow.

N from tis very day onwards,

I am fighting back.

To regain my faith.