I was at Emily's place the whole afternoon till i even dozed off right beside her!!

I brought her lunch and spent some time with her as she was alone at home.

Then we started chatting away.

I suddenly felt the ' missing ' thing in me coming back again.

Nothin much i could do, i just wish it could go away.

Y i must feel this way, i dun noe.

But i believe as time goes by, i will get over everything tat happened.

So i was tellin emily abt the hindi movie i watched the nite before.

I totally forgotten the title but it was the latest movie tat Shah Rukh Khan acted in.

Yeah, i noe i was a bit outdated. Im sure most of u peeps have watched it before.

But i haven't. *smiles*

The pretty faces of Preity Zinta & Rani Mukerjhee made the movie a real thumbs up.

But then again, simple things like tat always leave a deep impact on me.

Well, the story line was realli touching and i was left weeping at 1am in the morning!!!

I learnt somethin though, abt marriage.

Never ger married when there is no love. Marriage is never a compromise.

Be married to someone u love. Never get hooked due to sympathy or anythin else besides love.

The movie showed how unhappy the couple was even though they were married for many years.

Y??

Because the girl married the guy due to compromise. She never loved him. But he, the husband, loved her with all his heart.

N in her marriage, she was still searching for love.Even though she was showered with soo much love from her husband.

But then, she found love not in her husband, but with another guy who loves her just as much. N tats her true love.

She ended up hurting her husband badly. Still the husband was kind enuff to let her go and not trapped her in the marriage no more.

I realised tat things like tat may happen in reality as well.

Some people sacrifice their love just to make their families happy.

N in the end, they end up not only hurting themselves., but they hurt the other party as well.

I can never imagine spending the rest of life with a man i don't love.

I hope i will never have to get married just to make my family happy.

I would rather live life alone than fake a happy life in a marriage.

I will not trade my whole life and grow old with a man i dont love.

Dear Allah, i pray i never have to go thru all tat.

I wanna be married with the man of my dreams.

I wanna love, have kids, have a home and grow old with a man i love with all my heart.

I dont need a perfect life, but i wish for a happy ending.

Nope, im not eager to get married.

Not for now.

But i hope sumday, my wish will come true.

I was hoping July will be a good month next year.

But with all my dreams shattered, i pray Allah have better plans for me in life.

Till tis very day, i still hope.

Insyallah, time will tell it all.

God Bless.

P.S: For those still searching for love, go watch tat movie....realli an eye opener.