Its been realli a hectic week.
Altho' things were much better than before, i was all worn out by the process. *phew*
Last nite, i received a msg from someone who was reading my blog and got everythin mixed up.
He always claimed tat he's never a fan of blog reading. Now i noe y my blog upload is almost doubled now. Heh.
Anyway, wat we write can be contradicting rite?
But, isnt tat wat life is all about??
Life is journey full of ups and downs.
We never noe wat might be awaiting ahead of us.
Me on the other hand, had tasted the best of both worlds.
The sweetness and the pain.
The last 2 months was indeed a learning experience.
I dare admit, i lost people i treasure for years.
My entries were said to be sympathetic, asking for unnecessary attention and wat not.
It was said tat i revealed too much for others to gloat over.
Well, isnt tat at the end of the day, my life & my entries?
I bear responsible for every single word written.
As far as im concern, the main cast of each and every entry of mine is none other than yours truly. *ahem*
Even if there's any other related parties im referring to, never once there's a name mentioned to trade their dignity.
I am very cautious with my word.
The last thing i wanna do is to offend my readers.
I am amazed by the numbers of visitors everyday.
I even received emails whether or not i take orders for hari raya goodies right after i posted the pic of theM!!!
Therefore, i am aware tat there are people besides my own circle of frens tat come by as well to peek a view of my life. Some even shared my plight. Im greateful for tat.
Wat is written here, in tis internet diary of mine comes straight from my heart.
I am the main actress of my own life.
Watever i write sumhow reflects the days i went thru in life.
My sorrows and my laughters.
I wish to share wat i went thru, may it be good or bad.
But again, there's always limits to wat i write.
My personal life will always be private.
Just a sinopsis of it will be fine. *smiles*
I am a nobody. I am just a simple gal living her life like any normal human being.
I have my flaws. I have my weakness.
One major weakness of mine,
I am one FICKLE BITCH! *lol*
When i'm angry or mad, trust me, i will say anythin tat even i would not remember! Tat bad ok !!
But watever it may be, there's one main reason y i blog.
Share my life experiences.
I was hoping, indirectly my blog may help others which is in similar situations.
Writing is the best way to let go of wat u feel.
Bottling up and pretending everythin is going fine, will damage the inner soul.
I write and i feel much better. I feel a heavy load is taken off me. My heart feel at ease.
Tat means, im letting go.
In any case, if i feel like crying my hearts out. I try my best to compose myself and let it out thru my words.
I have been writing and i am so glad tat people have been reading.
I received mails full of inspirations and motivational words.
It sumhow helped me go on the path again.
Like wat anna told me last nite, a fren o hers was reading my blog and ended up crying cos she feels for me. N of course, anna had to coax tat fren of hers and she blames me for making her fren cry ! Sorry babe, tell yr fren, i treasure the tears she weep for me. It sure does mean more than a million dollars. = )
So let me just conclude tis.
I dun blog to gain sympathy.
Not even to attract unnecessary attention.
I blog to make myself feel better.
Good or bad of my life, i wanna share and i dun feel there's a need to feel embarassed talking abt yr downfall.
Tis is life, nobody lives in a life full of roses every single day.
N im glad, while writing and sharing, i get to noe many beautiful people.
From the bottom of my heart.
Bcos of u fellow bloggers, im sumhow on my feet again.
God Bless.
