I made my younger sis, Trisya cried.
She was in the living room studying for her O'levels when i decided to just hang out and chat with her.
So i told her abt my dream the other nite.
2 nites back, i dreamt of my late dad.
He didn't say a word to me, he just looked at me and cry.
So i asked him, why must he cry?? Aren't he happy able to see me again??
He kept silent. But i remembered vividly the tears flowing down from his eyes.
He said nothin, he just teared and walk away.
I can feel my heart aching the moment i woke up to werk the next morning.
Immediately, i sent my humble Al-Fateha for him.
I seldom dream abt him. 6 years have passed, but i can count with my fingers the amount of time i dreamt of him.
But it was realli heartbreaking when the only time i manage to c him in my dreams,the only thing i remember was he crying upon seeing me.
So i told Trisya, mayb i've hurt Daddy in some way or another.
Or mayb, he's upset seeing me suffer like now.
I've been bottling everythin inside me, i suffered silently.
Since Daddy was closest to me when he was still alive, i guess so much he feels for me.
Mayb it pains him seeing me suffer.
Upon saying tat, Trisya started weeping.
My heart just breaks into a million pieces when i saw my only sister cried.
I noe, she's very sensitive when it comes to talking abt my dad.
N worst of all, she was studying for her major paper and i kinda feel bad to distract her from her books.
But i couldnt help it, i didnt noe tat while talking to her abt my dream, it could end up to us both weeping unexpectedly.
I make my way to bed and she just continued with her books.
It kept me thinking still, does my dad noe tat im going thru a rough path in life now tat he feels for me??
I hope its just a dream, a bad dream.
Cos i was realli missing him, being able to see him, even though only in my dreams is such bliss.
But to see him cry and just walk away, i just couldn't take it.
Dear Allah, please do not let my daddy bear my sufferings with me.
He's in the other world now, let him stay in peace.
Im sorry if i made him suffer with me but please dear Allah, bless me.
I would rather go thru this alone than seein the ones i love going thru this heartbreaking path with me.
Please bless Trisya with unconditional strength so that she could go thru her growing up stage in bliss.
Take away all her pain and let me suffer instead. My Trisya is too young to go thru all this pain in life.
Growing up without a father have been a huge blow for the both of us.
So bless us dear Allah, spare us some faith.
Wipe all the tears from my Daddy's eyes.
Please dun make him feel the suffering im going thru.
Just let him be up there watching over us instead.
Cos life havent been at its best for me & Trisya.
But Insyallah, we will deal with it.
Morning peepz!
