Im not in my best state of mood for now.

Lately, so many things happened.

Frens and family aside as they have been wonderful.

Work have been a huge factor in my life cos it have always been keeping me occupied.

But yet again, i think i made the same mistake again.

I hope too much.

Hoping for sumthin i noe tat is very hard to achieve.

I wonder y i am still holding on.

Issit becos i still love?

Or issit becos i realli want him to be part of my life forever?

I have sumhow almost completed the jigsaw puzzle in my life.

I noe who i should call frens. I noe who will be there when i needed a shoulder to cry on. I noe who will scream and shout rite in my face if i ever seek somethin silly again.

I noe it all.

But when i c my life being in love all over again, i saw it falling apart day by day as well.

I dun understand why we have to go thru the squabbles and misunderstandings.

Its realli damaging the inner soul.

I'm suffering, tats for sure.

Altho every single day, i wake up to a positive mind, i hope my say will be fine as well.

When i was abt to be in cloud 9 again, with new hopes and dreams, it sumhow got shattered.

Mayb i should just drill it into my thick skull and stop hoping for more.

Live my life as it is and treat every single day as a new beginning.

As much as i love the word marriage, i kinda hate it at the same time.

Oh trust me, i believe in happy endings.

I saw so many people around me being in love and ending it with a perfect wedding.

But at the same time, i saw some left broken hearted and picking up the pieces of wats left in them and trying hard to move on.

I kept telling myself, i am never alone facing all tis dilemma.

I was having dinner with my lovely ladies the other nite and when i found out wat happen to one of my fine babe.

Then i realise, some people may be going thru a much more difficult path than me.

So y must i be in despair?

I should look forward and move on.

Each time i blog abt it, it gives me great determination to move forward and look up ahead.

I wish to remain positive.

Stay away from things tat i noe will hurt me.

Like wat a colleague told me the other day,

If he's meant for u, he will be for u. Nobody can change that fact.

Well, true enuff, im 24 now.

Some people may think im late for marriage.

Some think tat i should take my time and settle down only when im ready.

U noe wat, i dun wanna even think abt it!

I'm sure Allah have my life all planned out.

I have suffered enuff. Went thru so much hurdles in life.

I need a break.

I dun want to go back to the past where i was all heartbroken and have to spend so much time mending my tattered heart.

If God permits, i will find my happy ending soon enuff.

For now, im not gonna hope for anythin more.

Cos it will just end up, me being left all broken hearted once more.

Have a good day everyone.

God bless.