I was shivering the whole of yesterday.

The day seems so cold, i guess tats the main reason y i suddenly felt so numb.

I was again at my lowest but i decided to end it there and then.

I felt hopeless each time i face situations like tis.

I can never learn to cope when im in such distress.

However, im much better than i was months before.

I managed to stay calm and compose myself.

Y let myself suffer and let others ruined my emotions?

I have been trying hard and werking my ass off as so tat i would be able to move on once more.

N now, im already at this stage whereby i dare say, im STRONGER.

I do not wish to look back and regret over everythin tat had happened.

I wanna move forward, begin a new life and be with people i love.

N when i love someone, i believe he will accept me for wat i am.

Cos i will only be his forever if he noes wat im worth and keep me for life.

I received another sweet motivating mail from a blogmate whom i realli adore,


" but no one can make you feel less beautiful. only you can make that happen.
so why feel ugly when you can be otherwise? cheer up. things can be get worse sometimes. when that happens, let it be. they don't come up with the phrase "there will be light at the end of the tunnel" for nothing. my favourite - every dark cloud has a silver lining. i've never seen one. but that makes me very hoepful, you see. for i know the day will come. sooner or later. may yours be already on its way."

Thanks SriChantique, indeed u r a chantique soul, inside out.

Reading ur entries sumhow reminds me tat im not the only one goin thru a rough patch in life.

But knowing tat u stand up tall each time u fall, give me great strength and motivation.

If you can do it, i believe i can do it too.

Thanks love for such a sweet mail.

It helped, realli it does.

U r indeed one hell of a strong woman.

Have a good day everyone.

As for me, i shall let my mind flow and set my heart at ease.