It wasn't realli a good day yesterday.

I made no plans watsoever cos i was realli not in the mood to meet up with anyone.

I had to return my costumes however so i made my way all by myself to Bugis.

Dropped by the saloon to say hi to Abg Awie and he told me to stay and break fast with him since i was fasting yesterday.

Syukur alhamdulillah, Trisya and myself managed to complete our 2 day puasa asyura.

So while waiting for Abg Awie at the saloon, Azmir came by to get his hair done.

Since i have not seen him for quite awhile, he started asking me tons & tons of questions.

Like, where's tis person? wat happen? where i am hanging out now?

Of course, he was kinda suprised with some of my answers.

But life goes on like he said.

He's rarely in Singapore and just came back for awhile to visit his famiy here.

He is currently busy with recordings as his album will be lauch next month.

But still. he is the same Azmir i knew back then.

So he did make me smile afterall. *grinz*

We had dinner at the nearby restaurant and we had nasi ayam penyet.

Tat was the most spicy nasi ayam penyet i ever tasted !!!!

It doesnt do me any good cos i was fasting the whole day and it was realli too hot for my stomach to digest.

But then again, company was great and we had a nice time chatting away.

I made my way home at 10+ and getting a cab in Bugis sucks big time!!!

Waited nearly an hour before i finally get a cab home.

I wasted no time though.

Showered and went straight to bed.

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I just need to do tis.

I wanna reply to a tag left by nurul.

Hey dear,

I dun noe just how to get thru u.

U left me a tag but there was no email or blog add for me to get back to u.

Anyway, im still doing yoga, at least once a week.

Hot yoga does helps in weight loss and im doing it in one of the centres in town.

But, i dun do yoga cos i wanna lose weight.

Nope, not tat.

The main reason i decided to take up yoga to is to relax my body and free my mind.

It does help.

In fact, each time i feel stressed up, i packed my bag and head down for my yoga session.

The reason y i wanna reply to u is knowing that u r goin thru a rough patch now.

Babe, it must be hard knowing tat your 3 year relationship is not going well.

Trust me, i been thru tat path before.

Therefore, it was never easy for me as well.

I was at the stage where i found tat life is so meaningless.

I lost so much.

I lost my my best frens, i lost my love n i lost so many precious loves around me.

But only one love stood by me till the end.

The love from my family.

N of course, the love i have for Allah.

There was time i felt tat ending my life would be a solution to all my problems.

How naive can i be??

N till one day, when i saw tears from the eyes of the woman who brought me up for the last 25 years, then i realise, i have yet lost my true love.

I get myself closer to Allah.

Altho i dun pray 5 times a day, often enuff, i humbly pray to HIM, at least bless me with nothin but faith.

Cos the only thing tat keeps me going now, is the faith i have in my family, my remaining frens and of course, Allah.

I stayed away from things and people i know will hurt me.

I kept myself blank at most time, just totally blank.

Werk have been keeping me busy all this while and the meet up sessions i had with my gerl frens sumhow helped build myself up once more.

U see, it was at one point where i totally dun trust anyone.

Yup, anyone.

Cos i was so hurt, i wanted to just live my life alone.

Allah is fair enuff to let me see light once more.

Altho my life is not complete, i am contented with wat i have now.

People come and go in your life.

U just have to close each chapter of ur life with a positive mind.

Believe me, i was never this strong before.

But becos i had been thru the worst, alhamdulillah i am more prepared than ever.

My life have never been a bed of roses.

I have my ups and downs.

And after every downfall, it just breaks me into pieces.

But syukur, i managed to get up and walk again with the never ending love from my mum and family.

So its never easy nursing a broken heart.

Dear nurul,

I have nothin to offer u to help ease your pain.

But just a humble advise,

Have faith.

Believe me tat there are other things in life tat u can look forward to.

N insyallah, u will be able to move on once more.

One thing i strongly believe,

If he's meant for u, he will come back.

For if not, Allah took something away from you and replace it with somethin better, insyallah

Its not gonna be easy leading a life and mending a broken heart.

But dun look back.

U realise y i dun have archives in my blog lately?

Its becos i dun wanna look back and remind myself of the pain i went thru.

Cos the scar have never left this broken heart of mine.

But one thing im thankful, it made me stronger.

Take care dear nurul,

Feel free to email me anytime if u need a listening ear.

Salam'