Wednesday, January 10, 2007 @ 1:15 PM
Looks like im late for entry today.
I was so very busy entertaining the boss till i haven't even had time to make coffee for myself since morning!
My boss is super demanding today, expecting me to settle lots of his stuffs and i have to rush and book his last minute flight. *sigh*
But on a brighter note, he will be away for his business trip for the next few days and i will have time to settle my pending documents.
Also, i will be attending a splendid dinner with some colleagues later after werk.
We will all be having yummy curry fish head at Little India, courtesy of my team captain. *smiles*
Therefore i guess its gonna be another late nite dinner again for me.
No wonder i have been gaining back all the pounds.
Yup, i officially gained 3kg and now im a heafty 48kg.
Must be due to my carbo intake lah.
But yest, as i was home early, i didnt take any dinner and went straight to bed.
I was so blardy tired as werk been realli taking a toll on me.
I went home, watched some tv with Trisya and went to bed with an empty stomach.
I woke up tis morning with a grumbling tummy.Heh.
But again, i was too bz to even grab coffee wat more eating breakfast.
Therefore, i had a big lunch today.
Called KFC and me and some colleagues had our fried chicken!
I ate 3 pieces of chicken oK!
Somethin i rarely do.
Anyway, u all notice the change of song in my blog recently.
Well, people have been complaining, my songs are all very depressing.
Ok, i had it changed to something more... hmmm.. tangy shall i say?
But of course, the lyrics of tat song holds so much meaning to me.
It says..
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a T-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you
With you
Now that I'm with you
I mean.. how true can tat be??
Being with a man tat accepts u for wat u realli are.
You can be in your skimpiest T shirt and he still thinks u look gorgeous.
You can just be yourself and he loves you for tat!
Well if u ask me, i noe i been thru tat.
You noe, i have always been a makeup person.
I think u people will freak out seein me without those colors on my face.
I look so damn pale lah ok, as if there is no running blood in my body.
In one word, i look like a corpse. Heh.
So i was a bit skeptical at first, being seen without makeup, esp by a man.
But then again, he have seen me with or without make up, in my ugly pyjamas, in my most outrageous wake up in the morning look and well, many other occassions when i look like an indonesian maid while helping mummy at the stall, still he loves me for wat i am.
So i guess love is just not looking the physical outlook rite?
I was even a bit on the plump size back then.
Trust me, i tried means and ways of slimming down.
From traditional teas to all slimming tablets i see on the shelves.
U name it, i tried it.
Yet again, i lost weight just by going thru a difficult moments in my life for almost a year.
I went thru so much, cried a bucket of tears and broke my heart over and over again.
TaDaa.... i lost 7kg in all.
No slimming pills, no diet plans.
Still, i guess i still look good in his eyes.
For watever reasons it maybe,
I adore men who belives tat physical beauty is not the main criteria he wanna find in a wife.
I respect those men who believes tat finding a lifetime partner is abt spending the rest of his life accepting her flaws, sharing her misery and cherishing every happy moments together.
Beauty goes with time.
But a beautiful heart stays forever.
So when i say the word love,
It means accepting me for wat i am.
Ask me to change to become somebody i am truly not??
Well, tats not my cup of tea.
I can never be someone else beside being me.
I am still the stubborn, strong headed, do it my way, Nadya.
So its gonna be a hard time for men to cope up with someone like me, i guess. *sigh*
N i think im blabbering too much, dun u think so? Heh.
Back to werk and off for curry dinner later.
I think im gonna have a good day.
I hope you all will too.
God bless everyone.
