"...sometimes when i down and got nowhere to find support, your blog where i seek strength... "

Tats one of the many reason why i always take time to reply to emails from those sweet ladies.

N tat came from Rozy, a beautiful gerl 5 years my juniour and calls me Kak Nadya in her emails. *smiles*

I found love in u babe, and also another younger sister to be proud of.

I didnt realise tat watever life experiences i went thru could be a learning lesson to some.

Only after i received concern mails from people i define as ' strangers ' , then i realise how great the world is out there.

At one point of time, when i was totaly down and depressed, i thought tat the whole world was turning their back on me.

I even felt some people was gloating over my misery, clapping their hands and watching me fall.

Some claimed tat i deserve to suffer all my life cos karma is doing its job on me now.

I hurt people in the past and tat i should face all the painful events now, they call it retribution.

I remembered one nite when i was in bed, i cried my hearts out and asked myself, am i doing the right thing, penning down the miseries im going thru in this blog??

Should i let the people out there know tat im going thru a rough time??

Should i let those who have always hated me know tat i lost so much in life??

Should i let them know that im suffering and that i am going thru a major depression??

Should i be ashamed of my life and just pretend to move on well in life when im breaking down every single day??

Should i just blog abt me having fun, shopping and dining with frens??

Then i realise, im just being myself.

Its my blog, its where i feel comfortable in writing and letting it out.

Cos after writing an entry, i did feel better.

N when i was terribly hurt, i actualli cried while typing out those words and after tat whole tearful thingy, i felt so relieved.

I fall sick each and everytime, i lost so many precious things around me, i even lost the will to live at some point of time, back then.

N each time i received inspiring mails from concerned people out there, people i barely noe, who takes an effort to give me words of inspiration, i realise, life still have plenty of meanings afterall.

Thanks to my family, bloggers, and my babes, i am on my feet once more hoping tat 2007 would be a much better one.

Therefore, i just hope, to those who are indeed going thru a rough time now, be strong and learn to let go.

Hanging on to somethin tat can never be ours can be a little taxing at time.

I noe, its easier said than done rite?

I once felt tat way before.

When frens come to me and told me to move on and forget my past.

I felt like they dun noe or understand me at all, cos they have not been in my shoes.

But when i finally set my mind at ease and remember back all those advices i simply ignored the last time, i realise how foolish i have been.

U noe, love is a tricky game.

U either get into it,or get out of it.

No one can deny how sweet being in love is, but can anyone avoid the truth how painful being out of love is?

To be honest, i have yet give up on love.

Im just taking a break from it for awhile.

Cos this heart of mine is still very sore over every single thing tat happened back then.

Trust me, its never an easy journey to be wher i am now. *wipes forehead*

But i come to realise, all the experiences i went thru made me a much stronger individual.

I am contented with wat i am blessed with.

I look forward to simple things in life.

Being single and not married at 25 is not somethin i am proud of.

But after all the heartbreaks, i deserve a moment on my own.

So to those who have been watching this drama of my life and hoping i will fall,

I guess u have to hold on to your seat and perhaps wait or
pray for another setbak in my life.

Cos looking at how life have been now, alhamdulillah, i am doing better than i used to.

N for those who are going thru a difficult time in ur life for now,

My only advice, is have faith and believe in Allah.

Maybe HE wants us to go thru a difficult moment in life before blessing us with all the good things in time to come.

Its not gonna be an easy journey, fixing up all those jumbled jigsaw puzzle of ur life.

But trust me when i say this,

Those tears will be all worth it.

Only time will tell. *smiles*

Salam'