I met up with Yanni for dinner last nite.

Knowing tat i was definitely upset by the whole email thingy,

The babe travelled all the way from Yishun, despite being on MC to have dinner with me.

We sat for 3 solid hours, enjoying our swensens at the Crown Prince's outlet.

To make it all even perfect,

Tat dinner was on her.

Im begining to learn more abt the babe and realise just how much she care for those people she regards as frens.

Truly, im touched.

Its obvious isn't it, Yanni is such a blunt woman to begin with.

She speaks her mind.

I started to realise this behaviour of hers since the day she was labelled a copycat by some self proclaimed blog designer.

But when Yanni started to retaliate back, all of them just shut themselves up and pretended nothing happen.

From there, i noe how defensive the gerl is.

N when i was upset over the hate mail thingy,

Like everyone else here,

She suspected tat it was from the lady i had issues with lately.

I have been holding back myself whether or not should i reveal tat particular person's blog url.

Cos i feel the attention i received lately from the wonderful people around me was tremendous.

I have more than 20 emails to reply now.

All with motivating and comforting words tat make me feel a lot better.

Thank you very much to all tat took the time to dictate me such lovely mails.

Yeah, i received one HATE MAIL yesterday.

But in return,

I have more than 20 people who drop by with inspiring words for me to be strong.

Some was kind enuff offering to recite AL-Fatehah to my dear late dad. *sob*

I was weeping this morning reading those mails sent by people who are plainly just my harmless blog readers.

I have never realise tat i have people reading my blog and feeling so much for me as the days goes by.

As i was on my way to meet Yanni yesterday,

I was contemplating on closing down my blog.

Cos i dun want my family members or the people i love to face the consequences of my writing.

But when i got home last nite,

Showered and decided to browse thru my blog for the final time before i hit my bed,

I was shocked.

Indeed i am.

I saw many tags of course,

With words of encouragement.

But wat realli took the breath out of me was when i saw this.

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On normal days,

My blog will have the range of 400+ to 500+ the most.

But yesterday was a bit overwhelming.

Tat explains the number of emails i received yesterday alone.

N i promise tat i will reply to each and everyone of u.

But im sorry if its gonna take some time.

Just to let those who emailed me be inform,

I truly appreciate the effort and those words of wisdom realli helped.

Insyallah, i will get over it soon.

For now,

I just can't help but pray to ALLAH to bless my daddy's soul.

I dun wish him to suffer up there cos of me. *sob*

So pls,

Let's just put it as im begging YOU.

Get my daddy out of the picture from now on.

Its me YOU are not happy with.

Let me face this.

Let my daddy rest in peace, in his world up there.

N to YOU, Miss Educator.

I have received your very long email indeed.

Sorry, but you dun have to instruct me on wat to do.

Its all up to me now to decide.

Just pray hard tat the email doesn't come from you or any one of your frens.

Cos it wouldn't be a good sign if it happens to come from people surrounding you.

Yes, i may not be as diligent in any aspect compared to you.

I solely admit,

I am so much lesser than you in many ways.

But yet again,

I wont stoop so low in defending myself and resorting to such awful manner.

N PLS GET THIS STRAIGHT HERE.

I DID NOT ACUSSE YOU BEING THE ONE SENDING THE EMAIL.

But like many others,

I have a strong feeling its somebody associated with you.

Let's just keep our fingers crossed for now shall we?

N yeah,

Im still contemplating whether of not i shall let some of my readers out there have a glimpse of you.

A self proclaimed ,well to do educator who looks down on other people's profession.

But likewise,

I spare some thought for you.

Pardon me,

I still have a heart.

I wonder if you have one.

So pls stop being defensive and stop sending me emails telling me wat to do alrite?

N pardon those tags left in my column.

Some are dissing you without noeing who u realli are.

But they are just defending me.

Just like how i defended Emily.

In the meantime,

If u still wanna play tis game and hurt me more,

I only accept one thing.

A meet up.

I will not entertain any emails from you.

N oh yeah,

Your mum reads your blog, like u claimed.

For ur info, my Mummy does too.

N she's teribbly upset when someone mention abt her late husband's grave.

So when we meet,

Shall we bring our mothers along?

U decide.

N since im blessed with so many readers who feel so much for me.

I will count on their votes or whether or not i should leave ur blog url and let them have a glimpse in your entries.

Those realli high profile blog entries or yours, i must admit.

So readers, frens anyone of the 800 of u all out there?

Should i or should i not?

U all decide.

For now,

I just wanna continue mending this broken heart of mine thinking abt how tat heartless creature have insulted my daddy.

Dun wori,

I'll be fine.

With all those prayers and well wishes,

Wat more would i wanna ask for.

Thank you very much all.

But before i go,

Let me leave you all with the entry written by Miss Educator.

I find it defensive.

But again, why not you all read and decide as i take my leave.

Salam'

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