Wednesday, March 07, 2007 @ 8:38 AM
Its been almost a week and my cough is not getting any better.
In fact, it got worst.*sigh*
I've been realli busy at werk lately, the only time i get my hands to blog is at early hours like tis.
I feel realli bad not being able to reply to each and every tags.
But hey ladies, continue tagging ya, i appreciate those kinds words from you all. *smiles*
Anyway, its been long since i last meet up with my babes.
Im realli missing u bunch! ( reita,lili,anna,frosty,yanni,shida,srichantique,emily .... )
Cos my health have been such a bitch lately,
I make my way home from werk almost everyday.
Therefore, im realli missing life outside.
But nevertheless, i noe i need all the rest to get better.
I've been getting bad stomach cramps lately, it gets unbearable sometimes.
I just hope it get better soon.
With regards to the hate tag,
Im doing the calling up later this afternoon.
I have finally confirmed the person behind all this.
Will update abt this once everythin is settled.
On the other hand, i received a heart breaking email from someone out there.
For the first time in my blogging life, i get a mail from a male reader.
You noe wat, Mr X, i just hope things will be better for you.
It breaks every bit of me reading details of ur email.
Im sorry, im not aware tat men would be going thru sumhow the same depressing path.
Im sorry tat u have to go thru so much for the woman u love.
Basically when i blog, its all from a women's point of view.
Altho not all women out there would agree with me on some issues, i am just speaking my mind.
Its somethin unusual and fresh when i read tat mail from Mr X.
Knowing tat his heart is so full of love and he have not given up since.
U noe wat Mr X, i respect tat love u have for her.
I just hope one day, she will open up her heart once more, for u both to start all over again.
If u believe so much in the relationship, fight for it.
I understand how it feels when u say tat heart of urs just can't love anyone else but her.
Trust me, tis heart of mine can never beat for any men but 'him'.
Like u Mr X, i thought i could move on with life, perhaps with someone new.
But this heart just wont listen. heh.
It keeps clinging onto someone n i noe, its impossibe sometimes.
But ever sincei learn to let go, doesnt mean i have lost all the love.
Unlike men, women tend to get over love issues, a bit later.
Like me, i am slowly building up myself once more.
But when it comes to matters of the heart, i can be a weak bitch at times.
Sumhow when im much stronger and emotionally stable,
I always tell myself to stay calm and remain positive.
Cos dear Mr X, if she's meant for u,
She will be for u, no doubt abt it. *smiles*
Im sending u my greatest apology Mr X,
I didnt noe tat thing i write in here may have disturbed u emotionally.
But all tat u have done for her so far, is so admirable.
Give her time, let her settle her life and give her some space.
Im sure she's always aware of ur existance.
Its just she's a little more cautious for now, just like me.
The bad experience u both had must have taken a toll on her.
But since u have so much determination to make it work again,
Im sure Allah wont dissapoint you. *smiles*
I wish u all the best Mr X.
I have replied to ur email late last nite.
I hope sumhow, i do make u feel, at least a bit better alrite? *grinz*
N thank u very much for opening up my eyes.
Cos i didnt realise all tis while,
A man could have tis much faith and love,
Just to be with a woman he loves.
Salam.
