Its finally Friday.

This week seems to fly by so quickly.

I am meeting the beautiful Srichantique later during the day.

Yup, a movie date with tat wonderful babe.

Perhaps a good meal with her will end the day perfectly for us both.

Lately, i have been spending quality time with the gerls.

The advantage of being single is the ability to make full use of ur time treasuring the people around u more.

Altho at times, i do feel a bit lonely, hoping i could have tat man rite beside me.

But i try to look at it in a more positive manner.

I have shed so much tears, encounter so many heartbreaks,

I guess tis is the best time i be by myself and concentrate on my life.

I miss being with him.

I miss being in the car and laughing our hearts away.

I miss sharing our corny jokes and just enjoy a nice dinner together.

I miss us going out with our favourite couple and sharing our thoughts.

But most of all,

I miss seing him smile.

Realli i do.

Im hurt, tats for sure.

But i noe,

He's suffering as well.

But being away from each other seems to be the best solution,

For now at least.

I dun wanna be hurt neither do i wanna hurt him.

U noe,

I can be realli blunt sometimes.

Each time we argue,

I intend to say nasty things tat i realli dun mean.

But all being said,

I just hope he realise.

Tats my main point.

I prefer not to drag things.

I prefer to stay low and just be positive.

Going out with my gerls and just not brood over the matter anymore.

Its not tat i dun care abt reforming or making the relationship better.

No, its not tat.

I still care.

In fact, i hope things would be better.

But i am realli tired.

I realli am.

I am afraid of getting hurt all over again.

I dun wanna end up like last time, all crumbled and torn.

Its takes me a hell of a long time to be wat i am now.

I dun wanna take the risk of seeing my life shattered again.

To love is to have faith.

N i have faith in tis love of mine.

I realli wish to see something more secure in the future.

A life we can both hold on to.

I believe in fate.

I believe in Allah.

N i believe,Allah will decide wats best for me.

So believe me when i say,

Being away from each other is not somethin im pleased abt.

Like you, i am feeling the loss as well.

But i have no choice.

I have to be selfish tis time.

Cos i went thru hell before,

I just wanna play safe.

Yes, i have stop all contacts with u lately.

Not even a single sms.

Even knowin u r sick at times,

The only thing i could do is pray to Allah hoping u will get better.

Cos only to HIM,

I seek strength when it comes to you.

Life have been painful for us both.

All i hope for is somethin positive.

The love we had for each other all tis while is simply magical.

Cos even when im away from u now,

My heart still beats ur name.

But like i say,

I just have to be plain selfish.

I hope u will read tis,

I hope u will understand.

Sorry i can't mention ur name,like u always claimed.

I believe if u noe its u,

U can feel it thru ur heart.

Till then.

Have a lovely weekend everyone.

Salam'