2 women braved themselves to pen down their past just for me.
2 women suffered and went thru major heartbreak just like me.
2 women whom mails i have not replied but i wanna higlight it here instead.
To this 2 most wonderful women, Yana & Nur,
I am sending you my greatest gratitude.
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I appreciate you both having to dig up your past just as so to make me feel better.
I have tons of crying emails as well,
All of you have been such darlings, sharing with me your darkest moments.
I can never make it without such care and concern.
Yes, care and concern from you all strangers out there.
I am hurt and totally torn.
But you all out there make me see light once more.
Both Yana & Nur proved to me tat after every heartbreak,
There's still light at the end of the road.
Yana moved on and is happy with her current beau which is far better than the ex.
But 6 yrs have passed, yet the ex is still someone very dear to her.
He forever will be in her mind and deep in tat heart of hers.
As for Nur,
She gave up her love for somone else's happiness.
Tat someone very dear, her best fren.
For the sake of someone else's happiness,
She sacrificed her own.
Yet till this very moment,
Her heart still clings for him, without fail, everyday.
Such a sacrifice deserve such a huge respect.
For that Nur, u definitely deserve mine.
Dear readers out there,
I am thankful tat some of you took the time to make me see life as it is.
I am not here suffering alone.
I am not here mending a broken heart by myself.
Many out there suffered just like me.
But they still stand up and continue fighting.
The reason y i highlight the mails is sumhow i hope,
It could help some people out there who may be going thru a rough time now.
Indirectly, the mails help me in many ways.
I cried, i realli did.
I felt so much pain knowin tat love could have caused this much not only to me,
But to many others as well.
N i thought i was the cursed one having to go thru all this turmoil alone.
But Allah is fair.
Indeed HE is.
HE made some of us suffered and then let us fight on with much greater strength.
Those ladies moved on.
Altho their heart still can't let go of the past.
I guess tats the memories they have to live with for the rest of their lives.
I am one of them as well.
I have decided to start anew.
For real this time.
I dun wanna dissapoint people who have so much trust and faith in me.
If others out there could afford the time to pen down their lives just for me to be better,
I must do my duty as well.
Cos i realise,
Nobody can help me.
Only i can help myself move on again.
For today,
I will.
Like wat Nur mentioned in her mail to me,
Even if i lose,
I could proudly say to myself,
I have given my best.
No regrets.
Insyallah, things will be better in life.
Maybe i shall go date someone new.*winkz*
Wat do you all think? heh.
Well, i guess the main point now for me is to concentrate on myself first.
When im much better and more confident,
I'll go out dating again alrite?
Fair enuff. *smiles*
But whoever i may be dating the next time round,
I can NEVER love them as much as i did before.
Perhaps the heart will still cling even when i move on.
Tats something i must live with and i realise tat.
Thanks to all who sent me those realli inspiring emails.
I can't highlight all in here.
But pls noe,
They all mean so much to me.
Thank you very much once again.
