I had a BLAST with Frosty last nite.

We met up after werk,

Had our usual dinner at Far East,

Sat down for hours at Mc Cafe over coffee,

And at the end of the day,

I felt so much better letting it out.

Yes, i am perfectly fine, thank you.

But it makes me feel even better after ranting it out with a close one.

Altho im still saving part of the story for Reita & L.J of course.

Dun wori ladies,

You both will not be left out. *winkz*

Meeting Frosty last nite was simply all worth it.

She sat there,

Listening to every bit of my rant.

Even tho she's a year younger than me,

The words tat came from her were something i could never think of.

She made me feel so much better.

She made me feel secured.

At least i noe,

I can always count on her in my time of needs.

Thanks babe for the lovely time,

I appreciate those precious advices.

I envy looking at both you & Kamal.

You both look beautiful together.

I wish someday,

I'll find love just like the both of you.

Insyallah.

N so i went home after the dinner session with Frosty.

Since it was still kinda early,

I decided to spend a little time checking my mails.

Everyday WITHOUT fail,

I will receieve emails from you people out there who happen to pass by this humble blog.

I can never thank all of you enuff.

I may have said this umpteen times.

But its just a way of me showing my gratitude.

I've got several emails yesterday,

Some congratulate me for being able to move on once more, thank you.

Some wish me the best of luck in my soon dating game, thank you.

Some was sweet enuff to write me an email just to tell me how much they love me.

Yes.

They dun even noe me.

N yes.

I dun even noe most of you out there.

But sumhow,

I feel so much for you people who took time writing to me.

It realli helps me.

It helps me believe.

I wanna share this lovely email i got from a sweet soul.

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Dear Fiza,

Thank you very much for such a heart felt email.

I can never thank you enuff.

I am not as strong as wat you think i am.

I am breaking down inside but im fighting hard to move on.

Love is abt making sacrifices.

I learn abt tat.

I learn tat in order to be happy,

You have to let go of some precious things in life.

True enuff dear,

I am physically smiling and hiding my sorrows from others.

But tats a part i got to play.

In another word,

Im playing a major role in my life's drama.

But indirectly,

While playing this new role in my life,

I became sumhow a much stronger individual.

As time passes by,

I am more contented with life.

I feel more at ease than ever.

Allah have showed me the light and im holding on to tat.

I am holding on to the new faith tat Allah have bless me with.

I told myself over and over again.

I will never let myself suffer like before.

Allah have taken some of my past away.

But HE on the other hand, substitue it with so many beautiful things in life.

HE bless me with a lovely set of frens whom i can finally trust.

HE bless me with a good job i can secure my life with.

HE bless me with a new hope i can finally move on with.

Isnt tat just perfect?

After going thru so much in life,

I finally see the light once more.

U name it,

I went thru all.

I was brutally backstabbed,

I was unfaithful to my bf before,

I was in and out of an uncertain relationship,

I was badly humiliated by people surrounding me,

I was cursed and sweared upon,

I was dissed by my very own set of frens,

I was left to rot alone just becos they felt i was being unfair and tat i lied too much in my relationship.

I went thru tat much mind you.

N to make it all even worst,

I love all these people with every beat of my heart.

They may have their reasons for doing all tat.

Perhaps its for my own good.

Perhaps its to make me realise tat life isnt gonna be a bed of roses afterall.

I bear no grudges.

In fact, im thankful things happen.

I learn my lesson well.

I am not a fine person to start with.

Therefore, i take everything tat befall me as a RETRIBUTION.

I believe in karma,

I believe if you hurt people,

You will get hurt in return.

I am one perfect example.

I am not a bit embarassed to share this with all.

I am nothing pefect to start with.

I was a bitch to many.

N i respect tat thought they have on me.

People change.

My life change.

N im moving on to a better route this time, insyallah.

Dear Fiza,

I may have blabbered so much in my reply this time.

But i wanna let you noe tat i am not a fine individual at
all.

Yes love,

People hurt me,

N i hurt them.

I lost them,

They lost me.

Im sure there's no regrets to anything.

Its not my loss,

Its not their loss either.

Tats how i see it.

Its all a blessing in disguise.

A blessing thru the hard way.

I am honored to be able to get connected to you thru my entries.

Yes love,

You can be my adik,

I only have one adik, tats Trisya.

You can be like my Trisya as well. *smiles*

Thank you very much for your doas'.

Thank you very much for your well wishes.

Thank you very much for your trust and faith.

I am going strong.

Cos all of you made me whole once more.

From the bottom of my heart Fiza,

A big thank you.

N of course,

I love you too.lillah

Salam'

p.s : Sri love, im sorry abt what happen to your blog. Some people are just losers. Hacking your blog and humiliating you like that! I believe you love. N so will many others out there. Love u babe.