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I never thought i would miss her this much.But fair enuff,
Im happy for her.
Altho she's far from my sight,Her blog entries keeps me and many of her frens updated abt her life there in Abu Dhabi.To be very honest,I was contemplating whether or not i should send her off.Cos i hate saying goodbyes.I hate to see her cry.
Worst of all, i hate to see her go.I even sent her messages telling her to just go without having to see me.N when she called me the day before she left,I couldnt take it no more.I woke up the next morning, supposed to set off for werk,But i stood there in my living room thinking of her.Thinking tat i would not be able to see her in many more months to come.I sms'ed her for her flight details, called my boss to ask for a morning off, got ready and zoomed off to the airport.N im glad i did tat.It was simply heartbreaking but i have no regrets.N when when i saw her hugging her family and her bf,It breaks my heart even more.I was speechless.I went numb.The moment she came to me to say her last goodbyes,We were hugging and crying endlessly.The only thing in my mind was whether or not she could cope being away, alone.She's young but very ambitious.N therefore, I kept re-assuring myself tat she will be fine.N im glad she's doing fine indeed.
I smile when i browse thru her blog and saw beautiful pictures of her and her batchmates.
She's adapting well and im realli happy for her.
Its amazing how much i feel for this girl.
She's just like a sister to me, just like how much i love Trisya.
I began to believe its not abt how long you noe the person,
Its abt how well you communicate and trust one another.
N yeah,
Anna and myself got even closer thru blogging.
Amazing huh?
How words written in this humble space can create beautiful friendship like tis.
I simply have no regrets posting abt my personal daily life for view.
I believe different people have different ways of perceiving things.
Some may think im seeking attention.
Some may realise tat all i need is somewhere i can rant and let go.
N true enuff,
All i need is space.
A space i can rant my hearts out with my poor english.
A space i can relate to and make wonderful frens.
A space i can express my gratitude to people who cares so much all this while.
Seriously, all i need is all mentioned above.
I wanna noe the rite people at the rite time.
Just let bygones be bygones.
We shld just look forward i guess.
N for me,
I should stop thinking of my past and look ahead.
I am still the old Nadya.
The only difference now,
I mingle with a new set of people.
Other then tat,
Everythin else is pretty much the same.
N i have never been more grateful to Allah for making this wonderful souls part of my life.
Who noes,
Thru blogging and expressing myself more,
I will make better relations with people i have issues with eons ago.
For sure,
I hold no grudges,
Wat more hatred.
I guess when Allah created me,
HE forgotten to install a small space in heart,
A space for hatred.
I simply hate no one.
Not even those who have hurt me badly.
I believe i am not perfect myself.
Who am i to hate them?
Like them,
I have flaws myself.
We are humans afterall.
Shouldnt we just be happy for one another.
I am a strong believer in karma.
It happen rite in front of my very eyes.
I hurt people before.
I ended up getting myself hurt back.
N i had a terrible time getting in shape again.
I suffered thru depression.
I cried a bucket of tears.
I got sick almost every week.
I lost almost 8kg without any diet tabs.
I suffered tat much.
But when i think of all tat now,
Im glad Allah put me thru all tat ordeal.
Cos honestly,
It made me a better person.
A much stronger person in fact.
I noe who to trust now.
I noe who will be there for me when i realli needed them.
I noe who will lend me a shoulder to cry on one day when im down n out once more.
After all tat happen,
I noe all the Do's and Don'ts now.
Nevermind all those tears.
Nevermind all those heartbreaks.
Nevermind all those tat i lost.
Cos from there i learn.
Let the past be history.
Let the future be something to look forward to.
Or simply,
Lets just put it this way,
Let bygones be bygones.
I lost so much before.
All i want now is to gain everythin back.
I want a brand new life.
N i believe,
If the heart is sincere and true,
Everythin will be just fine.
Dun you think so?
On a totally different note,
I wanna share some comforting words sent by Sis Muna to me via email,
"...nadya sweets, you have mentioned that all you want to do now is to get closer to Allah. so please love, please allow me to have the honour to guide you to be closer to Allah. ask me anything you have been wanting to know or ask. anything about our religion. i would be more than willing to be a sister to you.
let me tell you something. when i love a sister, my only hope is to be together with the sister in our REAL life. the hereafter...."
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Dear Sis Muna,
Like wat beautiful Drubilee mentioned in my tagboard,
You are like an angel tat Allah send to all of us.
You are someone i look upon and i respect most.
N yes Sis Muna,
You are indeed our angel.
Im sure Love will agree with me as well.*smiles*
Till then.
Salam.
p.s : Anna love, do take care. We miss you lots. Farah babe, thanks for the
pixies ya! *muackz*
