So the weekends finally arrived.

I am soo looking forward to spending those free time with my loved ones.

This is the final week Mak, Abah and the kids will be putting up at my place.

Im sure gonna miss them.

Esp Baby Shukri who brought so much joy to my life.

He is such a sweetheart.

His laughter and smile just melts me away.

Each and everytime when im home,

Im always looking forward to spending some lovely moments with tat baby.

He ease all my worries away.

Realli, tat baby does.

I adore kids very much.

N i have to stop dreaming of having one of my own anytime soon.

So i seek love from my little cousins and nephews.

Even as KiKi grows much older now,

i still calls him ' baby' at home.

Kiki will forever be my baby boy.

He's an avid Sleague fan mind you.

I will try my very best to bring him to all my games whenever i can.

A few days back while watching the game at Hougang Stadium,

He made Trisya and me laughed like MAD when he actually imitate my cheer gals' dance moves!

Tats my cheeky little boy for you.

N u noe wat,

He doesn't support Woodlands Wellington lah ok!

When we asked him which club he supports,

He confidently say, " Adik support Gombak lah Mummy... "

Hmmm...

The aunty here is sweating her ass off for Woodlands and the nephew is supporting another team!

How unfair!

Kids will forever be kids rite?

They make your day all worthwhile.

Kiki & Baby Shukri definitely make my day all even better at home.

My nephew Ghazzi is all grown up now and therefore i gave most of my attention to those little ones instead.

But tat doesnt mean i dun love them all.

They are still very much part of my life.

N of course, when i get all cosy with those bunch of sweetie pies,

Everyone will hint me to have one of my own.

Like hello??

Find me a husband first can? *grinz*

All tat aside,

I am totally amazed just looking at myself a few days ago.

Alhamdulillah, I am getting better each day.

Realli, i am much better than before.

Even i dun noe how come i am adapting so well.

Besides missing Anna very much,

Everything else is picking up realli well.

I am more confident than before.

Perhaps after reading all those real life testimonials via email,

It made me realise tat the world doesn't stop for my grief.

Even someone who never once had physical contact with me advised me to move on.

So dun you all think i should?

Of course i should!

N i never felt better than this.

Honestly.

I am happy.

I am happy tat i finally let go.

I can feel a burden lifted off my shoulders.*phew*

Another reason why i feel a tad better than i used to is perhaps due to me wanting to be nearer to Allah.

Yes loves,

I am trying my very best to be nearer to HIM.

Its gonna be a step by step thingy.

Alhamdulillah, not only Sis Muna offered me her sincere help,

Someone even invited me to a ' maulut' session at the mosque tonite!

N this particular someone happen to read my blog and follow up with my life.

Sweet enuff, sent me a frenster smile and offered me to attend the 'maulut' session.

N yup, Trisya and myself will make our trip to the mosque later after mahgrib.

Then we both will do our isyak prayers at the mosque followed by the maulut session. *smiles*

Thinking of spending my nite at the mosque make feel so at ease.

I decided tat life will change from now on.

I am not gonna bother abt wat others gonna think of me.

Think wat u want and say wat u need to say.

I respect all being mention abt me.

At the end of the day,

Its your thougts and it doesn't realli matter to me.

Cos as far as i noe,

I have done my best to make things rite.

U noe better wats going on.

N if you think tat by passing bad remarks abt me gonna make me fall back once more.

I dun think so.

Cos this time round,

I have more faith than ever. *smiles*

N i never felt like tis before for a long long time.

I am totally impressed with myself.

I will return all sincere smiles hurled to me.

I will be as friendly as possible to everyone out there.

I will be as humble as i can.

But pardon me once more.

I am not trying to attract any attention from anyone here.

I wish my life experiences could be a learning point for people out there.

I went thru the worst,

But i still make it this far.

All thanks to 'strangers' out there who make me realise how beautiful the world is out there.

N now,

Im returning back the favour.

I wanna tell all of you people out there tat im moving on.

N im happy.

Not becos i found a new man.

No, not yet!

But becos i found a new life.

Becos i found my faith once more.

Alhamdullilah.

With Allah's grace,

I wish to settle all my outstanding issues by the end of this month.

N insyallah by May onwards,

I'l begin a new life.

Looking forward to my visits at the mosque now on every Fridays.

Believe in Allah, tats my advise.

HE will guide you thru.

Lets just put it tis way.

Dunia nak, Akhirat pon nak.

Lets have the best of both worlds shall we?

Have a lovely weekend everyone.

Salam'