I was not in a perfect state of mind last nite.

But seein them all just make all my worries just fly away.

I am honored to be bless with such wonderful souls.

I was realli touched when my dearest cuzzie Arfian came up to me the moment i stepped into the restaurant and asked,

" Kak, wats wrong?"

I was left speechless.

I noe they are all reading this blog of mine.

Even my beautiful Mak Ca keep track of my life thru this blog.

So when tat handsome cousin of mine asked me wat went wrong in my life,

There is no words tat i could utter out to him.

Cos i noe, if i were to say anythin last nite,

I would have spoilt the dinner with my cries.

So wat i did was put up a brave front.

N yeah, i declare myself being realli fake last nite.

I was smiling yet breaking up inside.

But nevertheless,

I am still very much thankful for the dinner last nite did help me get by this difficult time.

I have decided to get myself nearer to God.

Only to HIM, i seek strength.

I dun wanna end up losing my faith along the way.

I have lost so much in life.

Its time i hold on to only the people i trust.

Its time i totally shut myself off from people who have nothin to do in my life.

Its time i just ignore and dun give a damn on wat these people may think of me.

I have tried my best to make everyone happy.

But when some people do not appreciate and still have the tendency to bad mouth me,

Then go ahed.

May Allah forgive you.

I just wish you will be happy.

Be happy with ur life and may you meet someone who care more for you.

I wash my hands from today onwards.

I am on " switching off" mode.

All tat aside,

Thank you very much family for making me feel love each and everytime.

I am thankful having you people around me.

At least i noe,

No matter how badly i have been treated in love.

People i call family is still there loving me as me.

Me as wat i am.

Me as Nadya.

And last nite when were saying our goodbyes,

Arfian pull me aside and asked Trisya to snap a pic of me and him. *smiles*

So love,

This one is for you oK!

Before i end my entry for today,

I wanna wish my dearest Uncle Bird,

A very Happy Birthday!



May Allah bless you with all the best things in life,insyallah.

Till then,

Have a lovely weekend all.

Salam'