I was having dinner with Mr B last nite when the i heard this song being aired.

Suddenly i felt a lump in my throat.

I tried so hard to hold back my tears.

I dun wanna end up crying in front of my food.

But i failed.

Of course Mr B got all panic when he saw me tearing.

He was clueless.

He ran to his car and got me 2 packets of tissue!

Wei Mr B,

U think i will cry tat much huh?

But again,

Thanks for the great advice and concern.

Yeah, i was a bit emotional yesterday.

N the lyrics of tat song kill me rite there and then. *sigh*

To love somebody.

An oldies i must say.

But can you feel the depth of the song?

For sure i do.

Tats y i ended up tearing while having my meal.

Im sorry if i scare you Mr B.

I really didnt mean it to happen.

So you understand now why im keep telling you im still not ready?

Yes, im soo over it.

But the heart is still very sore.

The other nite,

I was chatting with my mummy and i told her how so much things have changed.

My life esp.

I never felt so at ease before.

Cos the day when i totally let go,

I told myself,

To love is not to own.

To love is to watch the person you love happy.

To love is to pray for the person you love well being.

To love is to sacrifice your happiness for the sake of the person you love.

To love is not to live happily ever after with the person you are deeply in love with.

Not everyone is lucky in love.

I am one perfect example.

I have no one to blame besides myself.

I caused the turmoil in my life back then.

Regret is never a word to use for now.

If you ask me to turn back time,

I wouldn't.

Im glad things happen.

They say,

Things happen for a reason.

I believe tat.

No matter how painful it may be.Its a test from up above.

Yes people,

I lost love.

N he will forever be in this heart of mine.

Im glad he found his happiness along the way finally.

Me keeping my silence only means one thing.

I wish to move on.

N i wish he will too.

I heard and seen many of his happy moments being captured.

N to be realli honest,

Each time i see those smiles.

I feel blessed.

I feel he deserved it.

I feel he ought to be with someone who treasures him more than i do.

He deserve all the happiness in this life and thereafter. *smiles*

On my side,

I am contented with wat i have around me for now.

I have mummy, trisya, love, my mafia babes, my blog mates, my faithful strangers and not to forget, Mr B.

He has sumhow guided me thru those painful moments in my life.

One day i hope,

Allah will open up my heart once more.

Its time i give myself a chance to love again.

I have been too busy with myself, werk and my health.

I sumtimes overlook some of the important aspects in life.

I am not getting any younger, dun u think so?

Mr B kept reminding me tat my COE will drop if i keep playing hard to get !! Heh.

Hey Mr B,

Dinner last nite was marvellous.

Thanks once again.

But sorrry to scare you tho.

I promise i'll not cry like tat again ok?

Or mayb.

The next time we go dinner,

Can you choose a spot where they DO NOT play mushy love songs pls?

Just to play safe this time. Heh.

Till then.

Salam'

p.s : with much regrets, invitation for dinner is closed. Thank you very much for the overwhelming response! We'll do it again the next time ya! At a bigger place this time.