.:: ... Nadya Camelia ... ::.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007 @ 8:35 AM

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dear nadia,
a gd entry indeed..for every haters, there'll be triple lovers in ur life..and i am one of them..so the more hater, the more lover u will have..hv a gd pleasant day love! i love u!

# posted by

manja1978 : 6:45 AM

Salaams Luv

The only thing I can say is sabar...Everything has a reason I learned that..For each pain there is a reason..Essentially only Allah SWT knows...

# posted by

Em : 8:50 PM

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Before you start reading,

Let me warn you that this is gonna be a hell of a long entry.

Its either you bear with me

Or i advice you to simply skip this entry.

Unless you are still interested,

I would love to share this with you. *smiles*

People have been asking me this question alot.

Why i have yet posted pictures of me and Mr B?

To be very honest,

I am not prepared.

Seriously, im not.

I am not ready to showcase anything abt me and him just as yet.

Nothing is concrete at this very moment.

I for once dare not take the risk.

Altho i agree that things are pretty much smooth sailing,

But i am still not comfortable posting pics of us for all to see.

I have a list of people still pending for approval wanting to view my private pics in frienster.

I am soo sorry to some whom i have yet approved.

Its not that i am trying to hide his identity or watsoever.

But i respect his wishes as well.

This blog is ever filled with drama.

Hate mails are my best friend.

I even have to take off my tagboard due to some unwanted visitors.

Blogging have never been safe for me to be honest.

But i have yet quit.

As much enemies i made thru blogging,

I made a handful of friends as well.

Those friends we call,

Our Lovelies.

Altho i did make an effort to blog on the safe side,

I still tend to hurt people in some way or another.

Those hate mails sounded so evil at times,

I wonder wat issit that i blog about that offend them.

I have been blogging mainly about my life and my fellow mates.

Nothing much about things not related to me.

So is my life a burden to you?

Writing about my dinner dates bothers you that much?

Are my pictures causing eyesores to you as well?

Is seeing me smile again causing u a massive heartache?

To be very frank,

You haters have a choice,

To either stop reading this blog

Just endure with what you see and read in this website.

The choice is yours to keep.

I have never once forced you to read or admire my pictures.

Since its your option,

Why the big hoo haa??

Contradicting?

You be your own judge.

As simple as that.

I received a hate mail a few days ago,

Claiming that i have yet posted pics of Mr B cos he is ugly.

Very well.

If you think so,

Then carry on thinking he is ugly.

It doesnt bother me at all even if he is.

You think by mentioning all that will make me all worked up and i shall prove you wrong by putting up his pics?

Well, try a little bit harder.

The trick don't work on me, unfortunately not. *smiles*

N i wonder why you are soooo bloody eager to see his pics!!!

Its my blog wat,

See my face enuff lah!! Duh!

For a matter of fact,

I guess this particular person wish to see me fall once more.

Knowing that i used to go through a rough relationship before,

He/She is hoping that i will go thru hell once again.

Remember a year ago when this blog is popular with a hate tagger that calls herself, Enemy?

Every single day,

She would cursed and swear me with words that i shall not elaborate more.

Remember her?

N from that instance,

My blog have reached its maximum number of readers.

Its pretty obvious that people are more interested in the drama of my life rather than my personal well being.

I am not saying all my readers are hoping to see me fall.

Nope.

I received wonderful mails that make me smile every single day.

Some wishing me well.

Some sharing my joy of being able to move on once more.

N of course,

Some are simply filled with hatred knowing that i managed to get up on my feet once more.

Its not an easy path for me.

I went thru so much obstacles before i finally managed to see light once more.

The journey of my life was a bumpy one.

But i have no regrets.

Those tears paid off.

Those people i lost are meant to be remembered for a lifetime.

Those people i just found are to be tresured till eternity.

Thats the principle of my life now.

To that particular person who sent me that hate mail,

I wont waste my time posting ur mail up here in my blog and let you enjoy free publicity.

Im afraid you have to try a little harder to achieve what you have in mind.

Perhaps you would consider joining that clan of assholes who created the blog dissing me and some of my lovelies.

Im giving you an option to consider. *smiles*

For i would like my blog to be shared with those who loves me and vice versa.

I hate the word hatred.

Yes, i hate it very much.

Therefore,

Im puzzled still if you hate me and yet you are still reading this. Heh.

If you are hoping i would fall once more,

Then work harder.

Cos if it was me back then,

I would be feeling damn miserable and all worked up when i received hate mails like that.

But let me just get this clear,

The old Nadya is long dead.

Since the begining of 2007,

I have become someone i thought i would never be.

I am immune to all dramas.

I am sick and tired of hearing things being said abt me.

I am all smiles when i heard people claiming that i am a bitch.

I am in awwwww... when some claimed i sleep around with footballers.

I am all good even when some slapped me with facts abt me being unfaithful before.

To be realli honest,

I have become a very numb person.

I have learn only to love and nothing more.

My heart is free from grudge and hatred.

My heart only love.

Call me a hypocrite,

I dun care.

I believe people change.

When they fall and failed in life,

They learn to get up on their feet and begin a new journey ahead.

I am doing just that.

With the new faith that Allah have blessed me with,

I am simply being a new me.

A new Nadya.

In regards to my relationship with Mr B.

It is something very personal to me.

Like i say before,

I dare not take the risk.

I value the bond we both share.

Therefore,

Please dun expect anything more to come out from me until the day everything is concrete.

For now,

Let's just enjoy blogging & blog hopping.

If you hate me or find that anything my blog potrays as offensive,

I advice you to make your way out and not come back.

That is what i have been doing.

There is a number of blogs which i refrained myself from reading.

Sometimes its better not to know.

Esp when it doesnt concern your life anymore.

Why read when you jolly well not interested rite?

Before i end this very long winded entry of mine,

I hope i get my message across.

Lets respect other people's life.

I beg for that.

Cos i need you haters to give me space and respect my life.

It really doesnt matter much if you hate me.

But it hurts me knowing that you are born with a grudge that will lead you nowhere.

Seek solace in Allah.

Maybe HE can help you.

Before i make my leave for today,

I shall leave you with this words to ponder,

Till then,

Salam.

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