I went home right after werk as i just couldn't take it any longer.
The continuos sneezing made me all teary.
Sorry Lina i had to cancel dinner with you last nite.
I will meet up with you next week as planned alrite. *smiles*
So i was practically resting in bed by 7pm last nite.
My lovely Trisya made me eat some cold tablets which made my eyes all droopy! Heh.
But it helps sis!
Thanks eh dik! Luv you! *hugz*
Anyway,
Being home early means i have some time to chat online with some frens.
Its something i rarely do of course.
Logging on MSN at such early nite.
SO i managed to chat with quite a number of people.
N most of them asked me practically the same question,
" You are home today?? No dinner dates tonight?? "
Well well.
Yours truly was sick last nite so thats the reason why i was home early.
Even Mummy was suprised when saw me home at such hour. Heh.
Ok, i admit i have been going out a lot lately.
But no choice.
I just love meeting my frens for dinner dates and coffee sessions.
N im glad my family understands my weekly routine.
So like i mentioned earlier,
I managed to chat with quite a number of people last nite.
It was nice catching up with Idasie, Ifah, Lynn, Harshe, my best far away fren in NZ .. Heh.
But best of it all,
Was when i managed to chat with an old schoolmate of mine.
We were in the same secondary school and even the same class for 4 long years!
N the thing is,
He is the only Malay guy in the Express Stream!
So can you imagine him being surrounded by all the girls during our mother tongue lessons! Heh.
Yeah,
That also means,
He always kena bully lah by us girls back then! *lol*
But he was closes to me though.
I even introduced him to one of my best buddy during school days and they even became an item!
Thinking of those times make me smile.
How fun it was during the old skool days.
So anyway,
That man was all devastated last nite.
He was very upset and i saw a very depressed nick on MSN.
So i sent him a nudge and asked him what was wrong.
N so he went on telling me how sad he was as he just broke up with his gf.
He was so upset that he went on and on telling me just what went wrong.
I was of course very sympathetic over what happened.
But it is something new to me when a man come telling me abt his devastation.
So as an old time fren,
All i could do was provide him with words of comfort.
I told him not to give up.
If he still loves the gf,
Then win her back.
Even though the situation may be rough now,
I was telling him to take things slow and win her heart again.
As long as she is not married,
There is still hope.
Why must you sacrifice the person you love just because you are too ego to admit your mistakes rite??
So i kept on telling him to make an effort and fight for her.
Its realli not worth losing her over such trivial matter.
I guess he is still very upset.
So he said that he needed time to cool down and think abt it first.
I told him not to take too long.
You never noe what might happen as the days passes by.
Then he came telling me that he wanted to take some time and break free for awhile.
Thats when he mentioned abt his plans to club with his guy frens tonite.
Its Ladies Nite remember?
I was of course very upset with his decision.
But i didnt utter a word to him.
Maybe he really needed a time out.
But then,
Why hit the clubs?
Isnt there any other way to release stress?
Does dancing the nite away helps forget your miseries?
Does getting yourself all drunk makes you forget all your problems?
Does getting to know girls almost instantly in a club makes you forget your past that easily?
Ok,let me just get this straight.
I have nothing against people who club.
Nothing against the men or the ladies.
But i wonder what pleasure does it gives to those men who hit the clubs with reasons such as,
They wanted to forget their problems.
Or they claimed that its the easiest way out to get to noe more girls.
So that means,
We girls are easy targets at the clubs huh?
Well, i dare not say much actually.
I really dun.
Cos i noe,
Im gonna get tons of hate mails right after i published this entry of mine.
But thats the risk i gotta take i guess.
In other word,
The truth hurts doesn't it?
So this is something i dun realli quite understand.
Honestly,
I do encounter a number of men who resolved to such things as well.
They tend to hit the clubs each time they had problems with their gfs or after going thru a break up.
I find it rather silly.
Im sorry but thats what i think.
I mean,
Shouldn't you be all down and out when your partner decided to end it up?
Well,
Maybe some men celebrates in name of their new status.
Being single once more.
Ok ya,
Thats another point totally.
But to those who claimed that they were devastated and sad.
I dun think dancing and getting yourself drunk is the answer.
In fact,
It simply puts me off.
Going through a break up is never easy.
I dun noe abt the men.
But it definitely isn't gonna be easy for the ladies i must say.
I went thru hell.
I suffered and cry buckets every nite.
The thoughts of hitting the club to get to noe men doesnt even hit me.
What i wanted was to get on with life and heal the wound of my heart as the day goes by.
Maybe the opposite sex take it in a different way,
Thats why we are called the opposite sex.
Cos we ladies solved solutions the opposite way the men does. Heh.
Thats crappy i noe!
But come to think again,
I do hope my perception on this may be wrong afterall.
I hope when these heart breaking men hit the clubs and dance their sorrows away,
They will meet the someone who can help heal their pain away.
So i shall look at the positive side of it,
Maybe while these men were trying to mend their broken hearts in the clubs,
They will meet the woman who will eventually become the love of their lives in the future.
Hey, you never noe rite!
I guess i have to learn to accept both the positive and negative points in this matter.
I noe this entry is aimless and contradicting.
But i get all upset when i heard of couples breaking up.
I dun understand why its affecting me badly.
Cos i noe how much it hurts,
Knowing that someone that used to be a part of you suddenly walk out from your life.
Then its abt picking up the little pieces,
And starting afresh once again.
That's something realli heartbreaking i tell you.
Been there,
Done that.
I wish and pray i never had to go thru all this drama anymore.
Im realli praying hard.
N to those who are goin thru a heart breaking moment now,
My only advice,
Seek guidance from Allah.
Pray to HIM asking HIM to free your mind and soul.
Cos when you are an aimless soul,
You tend to do stupid things and you will never realise the consequences.
I am speaking from experience.
Cos i used to be aimless.
N the consequences of my actions hit me bad!
I learn from it.
N i hope,
Nobody will have to repeat the same silly mistakes i made.
To all,
I apologise if this entry kinda hurt you in any way or so.
But just let's say,
We take responsibility for our own actions.
Its either we learn from it,
Or we simply remained ignorant abt it.
Its our choice rite?
I learnt my lesson.
Insyallah,
I pray for a better life ahead.
With the people i love around me,
I hope things will go well from now on. *smiles*
Take care lovelies.
Salam'
p.s : this entry doesnt mean that i am against clubbing ok! I am looking forward for my girls' nite out realli soon with the fine ladies! Movida shall we? *lol*
Quote of the Day
Life Of This World is Only The Enjoyment Of Deception.
Virtual reality is where we are now, the real thing is yet to come. Let's not fool ourselves with all thses worldly matters.
