.:: ... Nadya Camelia ... ::.

Saturday, March 29, 2008 @ 2:04 AM

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The exchanged sms'es I had with him was indeed refreshing.

It made me realise that the past should be burried, for good.

As much as it hurts trying to erase some memories of the past,

But I guess in order to move on,

There are things that you should let go.

I never thought it would be this hard,

I am crying while typing this.

Maybe it should be kept deep in my heart.

Only for me to feel,

Only for me to remember,

Only for me to realise its worth.

I should not have tried to convince myself that the past will live.

It made me feel more hopeful all along.

But I come to realise,

Some things should just remain,

As the past.

As MY past.

Sumhow,

I feel glad I did the 'thing' that I did.

I finally picked up all the courage and not hold back no more.

But I am glad,

I am given a chance to let out what I had been keeping all this while

Finally I realise,

Its just not worth it.

Someone shared this sms with me a few days back,

" I am the key, you are the lock. You lost your key, I lost my lock. Now, we are both locked."

When I think abt it,

Maybe its true,

I will always be locked if I am not willing to totally let go.

Thanks to that someone,

I finally realise its worth,

But insyallah,

With the help of all the people that I love,

I will make thru this journey with my head held up high.

If you readers dun really understand the content of this entry of mine,

It is simply understood.

Cos you are NOT in my shoes,

NOT in my position,

And NOT the one typing this at 2am while everyone else is sleeping away.

This entry is dedicated to myself.

Cos nobody understand whats realli happening in my life,

Besides myself.

Period.

*smiles*

Salam