.:: ... Nadya Camelia ... ::.

Friday, April 18, 2008 @ 10:40 AM

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I received a phonecall yesterday.

I was at the office when I was told abt the news.

Shocked, of course.

But the impact was pretty much felt only after I visited the family last nite.

You see,

Someone very dear to me passed away early yesterday morning.

I might not see him often enuff,

But he surely is worth remembering.

When I was much younger,

I used to help mum a lot at the stall,

Esp during the school holidays,

I will wake up as early as 3 am in the morning to help her out.

Sometimes,

It would be straight to the stall after a nite of partying,

Yeah no joke!

Anyway, back to the story.

As I used to spend much time at the stall,

I made pretty close contacts with the people there.

Mostly the older generation.

You see,

I always have this soft spot for the elderly.

I yearn for those warm friendly gestures from someone much older.

Grandparents,to be precise.

I lost mine when I was really young.

So I kinda envied those who spent their weekends visiting their grandparents'.

But nevertheless,

Since my mum had plenty of regular patrons who are mostly the residents nearby,

And most of them are the older generation people,

I took the opportunity and got really close with them.

Esp this particular grandpa who passed on peacefully yesterday.

He was a great guy.

He was really sweet, gentle and never failed to present me with his sweetest smile.

He will always come to say hi every morning if he saw me at the stall.

With that newspaper on one hand,

He will always let me kiss his right hand each time he comes by.

Then with that sparkle in his eyes,

He will remind me to take good care of myself and be good.

To make things all even sweeter,

He was blessed with a wonderful family.

His wife is an amazing woman and they have been married for more than 40 years.

Nonetheless,

He was also blessed with caring kids and grandchildren as well.

All of their family members are kinda close to me and my mum,

So that explains why his death was a bit harsh on me.

You see,

Since the last 9 years,

He had seen me grown.

I remember the day when my dad passed away,

He came to visit me at the stall with the most motivational words.

Since then,

I knew that man was someone I can share my soft spot with.

Trust me,

For the last 9 years,

I still receive a green packet and a bar of snickers on every Hari Raya.

But this year,

I am sure gonna miss it from him. *sob*

Last nite,

I cancelled my dinner plans just to go over to his place to pay my last respect.

My family went over last nite after our isyak prayers.

I was totally devastated when I saw that elderly woman all worned out sitting on the couch.

She was devastated.

When I look into her eyes,

My heart breaks.

She hugged me really tight,

And I nearly broke down tat very moment.

I felt the loss, really.

She is someone who stood by her husband all this while.

I always envied how close they both were despite more than 40 years of marriage.

Recently, when the husband got ill,

She will be the one going down to the stall buying food and attending to him.

A woman of great faith I must say.

I regret not finding that time to visit Atuk.

Oh yes,

I called him Atuk since 9 years ago.

I should have spared that little time to visit tat old man when he was alive.

His wife claimed that he keeps asking for me each time she return home after buying food from the stall for him.

Now its too late.

I only have memories of him sealed in my mind,in my heart.

He is just to sweet to be forgotten just like tat.

Honestly,

He let me had the chance to feel how having a grandpa is like.

Im glad,

Allah sent me an angel like him.

But my heart goes out to his wife.

I wonder how she will cope with the loss.

Imagine waking up for the last 40 years having that face beside you,

Today,

She will wake up to an empty space on her bed,

That face will no longer smile at her every morning when she wakes up.

Gosh,

My heart is breaking as I am typing this.

I can imagine how painful it is losing that someone you love.

Devoting your whole life to that person,

And you never will noe,

When that person will be taken away from you.

Seriously,

Im gonna miss Atuk.

But Im sure,

His family will tend to miss him even more.

May Allah bless his soul, insyallah.

N yes,

This is definitely a wake up call for me.

Appreciate those you love,

Never take them for granted.

Love them for who they really are.

Cos when you love someone,

You accept them despite all their flaws,

You cherish them altho how hard it may seems,

Appreciate and respect.

Tat will gurantee a blissful wedded life.

Just like Atuk & Nenek,

I hope when the day comes for me,

I will stand by my man regardless of anything and everything,

I wanna grow old and care for him,

Likewise,

I hope he still loves me,

Despite all the wrinkles and menopause.

And insyallah,

Even after 40 years of marriage.

Enuff said,

My last respect to my favourite Atuk.

Im sure he is with my dad now,

In heaven.

Salam'