I know I've mentioned that I'm gonna hang my blogging boots for good.

But this one is an exceptional.

Just a little update on what's been happening since I've been away from the blogging world.

Since my departure,

I have to admit that my stat reads had gone down tremendously.

From 1000 odd visitors per day,

I have now only 200+ of you people still coming back to view whats left on this webpage.

Most of my readers have moved to join me in Multiply instead.

I still blog and post many pictures of my life in my private multiply page.

I only give access to selected few whom I trust.

If you're not in my limited contacts,

I'm sorry, things are a little more under wraps right now.

Or should I simply say,

Life is more personal.

It's been a year since I last wrote a lengthy entry.

I'm not sure when I will ever write again,

But like I mentioned,

This entry is exceptional.

This entry is specially for those who still keeps coming back for a little update.

I'm doing fine, syukur alhamdulillah.

Life has been treating me well so far.

A few hiccups along the way, but still manageable.

A year since I've been missing from the blogging scene was definitely worthwhile.

I did a lot of soul searching, a lot of thinking to be precise.

Trust me, as much life has been smooth sailing,

There were still obstacles along the way.

But with patience and perserverance,

Alhamdulillah, I managed to get myself in shape once more.

All thanks to the important people in my life,

Things got better each day.

Things got under control.

There's a saying,

Friends come & go.

Family will stay by you for a lifetime.

I stood firm to that saying.

Cos without my family,

I can never make it this far.

A few friends made their way from my life.

Of course, with all the drama,it was a little harsh.

But as time goes by,

You begin to believe that it's not abt the quantity but the quality that matters.

I still have great friends who stood by me thru it all,

I can never be more thankful for anything else.

For those who were no longer a part of my life,

It's been great while it lasted, no regrets.

With family, some great friends and of course, my man,

Life is almost close to perfect.

It's a miracle that Mr B stood my me all this while.

Despite going through a rough time together,

I believe that it made the relationship even stronger.

He is everything that I dream of.

He completes me.

For all the tears and heartbreaks we both have went thru,

We still hold on tight at the end of the day.

I may not know what the future holds for us both,

But I'm praying hard, Allah created him just for me.

I've made many mistakes before.

I've blinded myself with empty promises long ago,

But Allah have definitely open up my heart & my mind.

I know the future is still a mystery,

But I sure hope in many years to come,

I still have these bunch of people in my life, still.

I'm certain that this time round,

Allah bless me with a true love,

Cos despite my flaws and all,

My man stood firm beside me, wiping my every tears.

I was diagnosed with an incurable disease a few months ago.

That was the most difficult moment in my life.

I am a Lupus patient living on steroids every single day just to keep me going.

I can't go under the sun or enjoy any beach activites in the daytime.

My life is controlled.

A slight trauma or a day without medication would cause me alot.

Allah gave me such a test for me to prove just how much I can endure.

It was hard, really hard.

But I'm glad to say, I managed to accept everything with an open heart.

My illness is incurable,I am aware of that.

That does not mean I'm giving up hope and wasting my life.

I have so much to live for,

So much dreams yet fulfilled.

I'm blessed that even after I was diagnosed,

I woke up every single day, seeing Mr B by my bedside for 11 long days I was hospitalized.

That man stood by me, love me & cried for me.

How can I not love him with all my heart?

Months have passed and I'm coping pretty well with the illness.

Things are going smoothly and I can't be any happier.

So many things to look forward to this year and I can't wait to be a part of them.

My best friend is becoming a wife in April,

I am turning a ripe 27 in July,

But all that are not the reasons for this lengthy update.

The reason for this entry is simple.

I'm proud to say that I survived 2 years of great companionship with this man.

Thank you once again for the tremendously awesome dinner.

You've done so much to make me feel like the luckiest woman on earth!

Here's to many more anniversaries in later years.

I've said this,

And I'm saying this again,

I love you, with every beat of my heart.

Thank you for being the man in my life.

Thank you for everything that you've done.

Thank you for letting me a part of your great family and friends.

Thank you for staying by me even when I'm not that perfect anymore.

Last but not the least,

Thank you for the lovely time last night.

It was really nice just by spending time with you.

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