Time for a little update?

I think so... *smiles*

I think I'll make a point to make a full update every once awhile.

Just to keep some who keeps coming back here posted.

Like I mentioned before,

I still have a few hundreds of you coming back still.

My stat shows readers from legal companies to schools even!

Sorry teachers if my usage of English isn't that polished.*grinz*

Nevertheless, thank you for coming back and taking time keeping up with my life.

Alhamdulillah, life have been kind to me.

My illness is much under control.

But trust me, popping steroids every single day is so not fun!

This have become a routine & honestly,

I'm beginning to live with it.

Lupus may not be deadly,

But it's such a tiring illness to start with.

Needles have been my new best friend ever since.

Monthly blood test & reviews are essential.

Thats how I keep my health in check.

But syukur for the faith HE bless me with,

I'm all good and coping well.

Alhamdulillah.

So yes, life is good for now.

I've so many thing to look forward to.

Great things to be precise!

Syukur, everything in life is taking place almost perfectly.

Allah must have heard my prayers and let me live in comfort again.

For every heartbreak & tears I've wasted,

I'm sure, Allah have every reason for all that I've went thru.

No regrets.

As a matter of fact,

I thank Allah for making me go through that miserable path.

Cos if I've not been through that rough patches in life,

I would still be blinded by all the nasty people around me.

With Allah's grace now,

I'm happily living life with my family,

I'm cherishing every sweet moments with Mr B,

I'm also very fortunate to have endless support from many great friends.

You see,

Life is never a bed of roses to begin with, for me at least.

I'm a 27 year old woman trying very hard to make everything in life fall in place.

My expectation is life is different.

I look forward for the future.

I'm not looking back anymore.

If I were someone who's only 22-23 years of age,

Maybe I'll consider taking risks in life.

But nope,

I'm not that young anymore.

And nope,

I'm not that stupid to fall in love blindly with any Tom, Dick & Harry.

I dare not take the risk of being with any more wrong people in life.

I've learnt my lesson,

I've learnt it well.

And they say,

As you grow older,

You'll grow wiser.

Here's an advise to young ladies out there,

From someone who have went through hell before,

From someone much older,

Never be blinded by love.

Be in love,

Cos love is a great feeling,

But never let love take control of your life.

You decide the path you wanna take,

Nobody else can help you if you don't help yourself.

I'm very thankful that Allah manage to not only open up my eyes,

HE cleared my heart & mind as well.

Mr B and myself have gone through 2 years of our lives together.

As a matter of fact,

I'm beginning to believe it's not abt the years you spent together that matters,

It's all abt the commitment, the effort & most importantly, the trust.

I may not be that perfect role model to be advising on relationship issues,

But my experiences in life have taught me alot, indeed.

They say, the best lessons in life are when you realise your mistakes and learn from it.

I've made many silly and impulsive actions before.

And there's no way I'm gonna take the risk of jeopardizing all that I have now.

The future may still be a mystery,

But life is a gift.

I'm embracing every moment of it.

My illness is not a setback in this life.

The world will not stop for my grief.

I'm thankful I still have love all around me.

In this life,

It's not about potraying a happy smiling picture each & everytime.

It's all about knowing what lies ahead of us.

My life is simple but yet I'm honestly contented.

Let's just say,

The past should always remain the past.

Some people will just have to stop worrying that I'll be a threat in their lives.

Some people can go on and say all the nasty things about me.

Truth is, it doesn't seem to hurt me anymore.

Cos it does not matter what others may think.

It's all about those who matters to me that counts.

Cos my life now, although nothing to be envied of,

It's all good and peaceful.

I have Mr B with me with his endless love & devotion,

Although me not being that perfect anymore,

That man stood by me all this time.

How can I not be thankful?

You tell me.

The smiles painted of my face were all treasured times I embraced.

I love life as it is now.

I'm not hoping for anything more or less.

Life is good,

Life is simple,

Life is almost complete.

Till my next update.

Please keep your securities in check lovelies.

Honestly, insecurities in life sucks!

Love your men,

Trust yourself.

Spread love and be thankful to Allah everyday.

Till next time.

Salam.