Monday, October 05, 2009 @ 11:32 AM
It’s been long since I last pen my thoughts.
Well, I must say, off all the things I’m occupied with, work is definitely taking most of my time. Nevertheless, I’ve no complaints. Being busy is a good thing indeed. I definitely learn that my responsibilities in life is huge at current. Again, I take all that as a challenge. Something that motivates me to work harder in life.
Being engaged is a wonderful feeling. I feel really connected to the man more then ever. He’s not only my fiancé, he is my best friend. He’s that someone I look for each time I need comfort. He’s indeed the man I can see myself spending the rest of my life with. A god sent indeed. After knowing a few wrong men, I’ve finally found my life partner. Amin.
Family matter, everything is going pretty smoothly. With the younger sis growing up gracefully and the older sis moving over to their new home with her family, our abode feels rather empty at times. With only mum, younger sis, the helper and myself, the four of us spend nice moments having home cooked dinner on most days. I try to keep myself at home often lately as I do not want mum to feel the loss of missing her noisy grandsons whom she watched grew over the years. So meet ups with gfs have indeed minimize over the months. But that doesn’t mean I’ve lost all contacts with them. Shikin, Anna, Haz & Liza are still many among those few good mates I still keep very close bonds with. Furthermore, I’ve gotten pretty close with the lovely couple Sara & Boy whom we usually catch up with on a weekly basis. Such great friends are definitely worth keeping.
I really feel that as time goes by, I’m having more roles to play in life. Besides playing the role of a daughter and a sister, I’m even mentally and physically preparing myself for another new role in life… and that is to be a wife. Which also means, I’m preparing myself to welcome many other new people as family .I’ll have another mum, 2 other sisters and also, a dad. My fiance’s family will be a part of me in time to come. I’m pretty excited to welcome so many new family members very soon. Such warm lovely people to add up to my life.
I’m really thankful to Allah for all his blessings. My journey was bumpy in the beginning, but I guess all those pain and miseries were blessings in disguise. I heard many times, God will never test you more then you’re able to deal with. I’ve been tested time and again, broke down more then I could ever imagine, suffered so many heartaches, but when I finally look back and think of all those hardships, I reckon all that was challenges that made me what I am today. Blessed is the exact word that best describes what I’m feeling at current. For all and everything, syukur alhamdulillah.
It used to be days with friends and weekends with family. But now, I’m beginning to be more family oriented then before. My mum, sister and fiancé comes first. I work really hard to make sure they receive what they need to survive in this world. I can never imagine not having them in my life cos honest to god, they are one of the main reason why I’m still alive right now. Of course, my fiancé is everything that I dream of. We have our moments but all that only made us stronger as a couple. We seldom argue like we used to back then. We somehow got really bonded ever since we got engaged. He’s my daily dosage. He’s like my steroids intake every single day. He keeps me going
With wedding preparations in progress, some newborn arrivals to look forward to, travel plans in check, work keeping me insane, I have my life all planned out.
Life is never a bed of roses they say, but let’s just take a day at a time and learn from our mistakes.
Cherish your family, partner and friends. Cos really, it’s never about the quantity now. It’s the quality that matters.
Till then.
