Someone USed To Tell Me - Nobody Can Love You In A Million Years Like I Do

2011-01-04T10:28:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year my fellow readers!

May 2011 brings a whole new beginning for most of us.

2010 was quite harsh to me though,

It wasn't really a good year for me to be honest.

Of course, I got married last year and that was the only good memories I have of 2010.

But I sincerely pray that 2011 will be a much better year for both myself and the man.

Here are some pictures I promised,

Let me start with some outdoor shots taken at the Raffles.

Insyallah if time permits,

I will post the remaining picures bit by bit over the weeks.

2010-12-14T16:49:00.002+08:00

I know I promised to upload more official pictures,

But I didn't know that playing wife could be this tedious!

Let me settle down in my new life and I will be back with more.

Lots of love from me to all.

Salam

2010-10-25T15:46:00.004+08:00

Our wedding is over,
But the beautiful memories stays forever with me.
It's true when people say,
Good things doesn't come easy.
We both fought a long way to finally able to make it to this day.
More official photos coming up soon.
Meanwhile, keep praying for us.
Salam.

2010-10-18T16:07:00.002+08:00

I became a wife on Oct 1st 2010.

Not only did my status changed,

My life will change drastically as well.

Our love journey wasn't easy somehow.

But Allah have this life planned out for us all.

Thank you for the kind emails and best wishes, truly appreciate the kind thoughts.

I'll post more pictures soon.

Salam'

2010-10-11T17:47:00.002+08:00

Truth is,

I am finally married.

The journey wasn't easy,

But syukur alhamdulillah,

We made it somehow.

Please pray for us both.

Salam.

2010-09-14T16:55:00.002+08:00

Salam Lebaran everyone.

May Allah bless us with many more blissful Syawals ahead.

Lots of love,

Nadya & Family.

2010-08-27T10:24:00.004+08:00

A very much needed break away from all that's happening around me.

I am not a very much blessed individual afterall.

But let's just take a day at a time and live life at the fullest.

Maybe that's what life is all about.

In a matter of time,

Yours truly will have my status changed.

Single?

No more.

Lifetime commitment?

In check.

2010-08-05T22:51:00.002+08:00

Finally a year older in July.

And I wish to grow old gracefully with all the positive vibes around me.

No one told me the road to happiness is gonna be easy,

But I have faith still,

I wish to keep going and moving.

Forgiveness is a way to letting go.

May Allah bless me with great strength to always forgive and move on.

Cos no one can ever understand the journey of my life.

2010-06-29T09:40:00.002+08:00

I have been tested time and again.

Alhamdulillah, I survived another test by HIM.

Life is indeed never a bed of roses,

But for all that HE put me through,

I pray for the good that will come out of it.

Faith keeps me going still.

And time will tell it all.

I will be back.

Insyallah.

:)

2010-05-27T10:42:00.002+08:00

You came to my life for a reason.

I will always remember the day I carried you home in my arms.

On every 21st May,

You'll turn a year older.

And on that very day every year,

I know Allah will always make me remember you as someone very special.

Happy 4th birthday sweetheart.

I love you.

Always.

2010-05-10T11:06:00.001+08:00

Becos what doesn't kill me,

Will only make me stronger.

: )

2010-04-14T17:11:00.005+08:00

I know I haven't been writing for awhile.

And seriously, I do miss penning down my thoughts.

But work and personal life are keeping me way too occupied.

I've come to realise that as we all grow older,

Our priorities in life change.

Work's been crazy and late nights at the office is not soemthing new to me now.

Of course, I'm still that crazy party freak still.

Nevertheless, everything else seems to be going right on track.

My wedding is barely 6 months in check.

Anxious? You bet I am!

I never thought that I would finally have this chance to parade in a wedding gown.

Although everything is planned at much simplicity,

But the effort that goes with it is definitely no joke.

I am up to my neck now with work, family, friends, wedding planning etc

Tell me,

Do I seem like someone who would indulged myself in anything else besides my own life??

Good things are definitely coming my back.

My dearest girl friend safely delivered a handsome baby boy and when I look at her complete family now,

I can never ask Allah for anything else except for such happiness.

So yes people,

Thank you for still coming back despite the lack of updates.

I promise to well, maybe make it a point to post on a weekly basis?

Till then.

Be safe.

Lots of love,

Nadya & Mr B

2010-04-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

Well oh well,

It's been quite awhile yours truly last written on this humble space.

Pardon me as I've been neglecting this webpage for quite a bit.

I've been swamped with so many things lately,

And work is of course taking up most of my time,definitely.

But somehow, I will always make time for special moments.

Especially when the man and I finally turned 3 a few weeks back.

It's amazing how fast time flies.

Who would ever thought we would go this far eh?

But somehow, I'm sure God had our lives all planned out.

And yes, This is our 3rd year together,

And it definitely gets stronger with the years passing by.

Here's to many many more splendid years ahead with you,love.

I've said this before,

And I'm gonna say this again,

I love you.

With every beat of my heart.

Thank you for loving me the way I am.

I am what I am now,

Cos I have you.

2010-03-03T15:36:00.003+08:00

Wedding venue, checked.

Bridal service, checked.

Wedding planner, checked.

Wedding singer, checked.

Life partner, definitely checked !

In barely 7 months, I am no longer a single woman.

I am finally embarking on a new journey and becoming a wife!

Excited? You bet I am !!

And now, I am tremendously busy sorting out the bridesmaids.

I wanna share my big day with those close to my heart.

Nope, I will not have 1000 people in my guest list,

I only wanna share the day with those important in my lfe.

So yes,

7 more months,

And I can proudly call myself,

Mrs Gadaffi.

2010-02-08T21:44:00.002+08:00

There are many special moments that awaits me in 2010,

Besides busy preparing for my big day,

I'm truly excited for yet another great event.

My gorgeous gf Frosty will be expecting a baby soon!

It was really not a fancy baby shower,

But it was definitely filled with lots of love & best wishes.

And yes my dear gf,

We all can't wait to for that precious little baby to pop out!

Have a safe delivery babe!

I'm pretty sure you're back in shape just in time to parade in the bridesmaid's dress in October!

Last but never the least,

Thank you for still being there for me despite it all.

True indeed,

Some friendship do stand the test of time.

We sure did.

2010-01-08T14:00:00.002+08:00

Our all black 2010 was not that 'black' afterall.

It was a very perfect way to end 2009 and welcome 2010.

But best of all,

Having the man right beside me to welcome the brand new year.

2010 will be a very busy year for us both.

9 more months to go,

And we'll both give this relationship a very special name.

2009-12-29T14:08:00.003+08:00

It'll be the 3rd time we'll be celebrating a brand new year together.

I love 2009, it's been a really kind year for us both.

We got engaged and bonded really well ever since.

Let's hope and pray 2010 will be better, insyallah.

We'll welcome the brand new year with a bang!

I hear KL calling us, again!

Have a splendid 2010 everyone.

Here's wishing you a very good year ahead.

Salam

2009-12-21T13:13:00.001+08:00

You'll be the prince,

And I'll be your princess.

It's a love story,

Baby just say ... yes :)

I love you sayang.

Thank you for being you.

2009-11-20T09:43:00.004+08:00

It's been long, I know.

I haven't been writing for quite awhile, and of course, that's all due to work commitment.

Life's been alright, nothing much to dwell about.

Been spending good quality time with the fiance and hanging out with the usual peeps.

Somehow, everything seems to be on the right track.

Having a good balance in life is indeed very healthy.

You work hard, you play hard.

That's my motto in life :)

Of course, my life would change exactly a year from now.

With wedding preparations and plans still in check,

I'm kinda all nervous anticipating the day.

I've made a huge decision in life by wanting to share this life of mine with a man.

This man whom I knew almost 3 years ago, he, who went through so much in life with me.

He, who stood by me despite a very rough path in the beginning .

He, who till this very day hear nasty remarks slammed at me, yet still stand tall.

He, who accepts my despite my flaws and all.

He, is not only my fiance,

He, is also my best friend.

And I thank Allah every day for making me a part of his life.

With Allah's grace,

Both of us will be holding hands, walking down the aisle exactly a year from now.

Who would have expected,

I was all heartbroken 3 years ago, in this very blog.

And now, I'm eagerly writing abt my wedding plans.

So yes,

With this ring on my finger,

Never ending family's love,

Great friends,

Fantastic trips,

And of course, my great companion,

I'll never ask for anything more in this life.

Till next time,

I'm gonna find time to write again.

Be good you all.

Take care.

2009-11-10T10:49:00.002+08:00

Becos I love you.

And I pray that one fine day,

Allah will bless us with a bundle of joy,

As lovely as you Kay.

2009-10-26T16:50:00.004+08:00

Life's been treating me good lately, thank god for that.

Been really busy with wedding preparations now.

Meeting with people and deciding on a theme is nope, not easy.

But of course,

Despite being all tied down with work and planning,

We always make sure we both spend good quality time together.

Our KL trip was nothing but awesome.

And yes,

We do party at times, to let off some steam.

Life is alright, I suppose.

Not too shabby~!!

Well, I'll come back with a lengthy entry pretty soon.

Thank you for the emails,

Really touched that some of you still remember this very basi Miss Camelia.

Till then sayangs~

Salam.

2009-10-05T11:32:00.004+08:00

It’s been long since I last pen my thoughts.

Well, I must say, off all the things I’m occupied with, work is definitely taking most of my time.
Nevertheless, I’ve no complaints. Being busy is a good thing indeed.
I definitely learn that my responsibilities in life is huge at current.
Again, I take all that as a challenge. Something that motivates me to work harder in life.

Being engaged is a wonderful feeling.
I feel really connected to the man more then ever.
He’s not only my fiancé, he is my best friend. He’s that someone I look for each time I need comfort. He’s indeed the man I can see myself spending the rest of my life with.
A god sent indeed. After knowing a few wrong men,
I’ve finally found my life partner. Amin.

Family matter, everything is going pretty smoothly.
With the younger sis growing up gracefully and the older sis moving over to their new home with her family, our abode feels rather empty at times.
With only mum, younger sis, the helper and myself, the four of us spend nice moments having home cooked dinner on most days.
I try to keep myself at home often lately as I do not want mum to feel the loss of missing her noisy grandsons whom she watched grew over the years.
So meet ups with gfs have indeed minimize over the months. But that doesn’t mean I’ve lost all contacts with them.
Shikin, Anna, Haz & Liza are still many among those few good mates I still keep very close bonds with.
Furthermore, I’ve gotten pretty close with the lovely couple Sara & Boy whom we usually catch up with on a weekly basis.
Such great friends are definitely worth keeping.

I really feel that as time goes by, I’m having more roles to play in life.
Besides playing the role of a daughter and a sister, I’m even mentally and physically preparing myself for another new role in life… and that is to be a wife.
Which also means, I’m preparing myself to welcome many other new people as family .I’ll have another mum, 2 other sisters and also, a dad.
My fiance’s family will be a part of me in time to come. I’m pretty excited to welcome so many new family members very soon.
Such warm lovely people to add up to my life.

I’m really thankful to Allah for all his blessings.
My journey was bumpy in the beginning, but I guess all those pain and miseries were blessings in disguise.
I heard many times, God will never test you more then you’re able to deal with.
I’ve been tested time and again, broke down more then I could ever imagine, suffered so many heartaches, but when I finally look back and think of all those hardships,
I reckon all that was challenges that made me what I am today.
Blessed is the exact word that best describes what I’m feeling at current.
For all and everything, syukur alhamdulillah.

It used to be days with friends and weekends with family.
But now, I’m beginning to be more family oriented then before. My mum, sister and fiancé comes first.
I work really hard to make sure they receive what they need to survive in this world.
I can never imagine not having them in my life cos honest to god, they are one of the main reason why I’m still alive right now.
Of course, my fiancé is everything that I dream of. We have our moments but all that only made us stronger as a couple. We seldom argue like we used to back then. We somehow got really bonded ever since we got engaged.
He’s my daily dosage. He’s like my steroids intake every single day. He keeps me going 

With wedding preparations in progress, some newborn arrivals to look forward to, travel plans in check, work keeping me insane,
I have my life all planned out.

Life is never a bed of roses they say, but let’s just take a day at a time and learn from our mistakes.

Cherish your family, partner and friends.
Cos really, it’s never about the quantity now.
It’s the quality that matters.

Till then.

I will be back.

Soon, I hope :)

2009-09-28T10:49:00.001+08:00

Wishing all Muslims everywhere,

Salam Lebaran 2009.

May Allah bless us in many good returns in time to come.

Amin.

2009-09-15T11:09:00.003+08:00

While embarking this journey called life,

I've come to realise that some things don't last forever.

But there are of course some things that I hope will last me a lifetime.

Friends come and go, they say.

But I truly hope,

The friendship I share with these 2 ladies will last me a lifetime.

Insyallah.

I've said this many times before,

But I'll say it again,

I finally found true love after many massive dramas in my life.

Like the everlasting friendship I prayed for,

I'm praying really hard,

This love of mine will last me a lifetime.

Amin.

Countdown to lebaran everyone!

I'm definitely all up for it!

See you all next week.

2009-09-07T10:14:00.005+08:00

Cos being happy for me means.....

Spending time and cherishing every moment together.

2 weeks more to lebaran!

How nice :)

2009-08-26T14:13:00.003+08:00

I never felt any happier before.

It's been the most amazing feeling ever being engaged.

And now,

I'm soo looking forward to Eid Mubarak!

Cos this time round,

I'll be celebrating the day as someone's fiancee!

Happy fasting everyone!

May Ramadhan brings us inner peace and bliss.

Insyallah.

2009-08-11T16:47:00.004+08:00

People say,

Pictures can say a thousand words.

And each time I look back at those pictures and remember that very day on 1st August,

I can't help but thank Allah for all HIS blessings.

Here are some pictures for your eyesore,

I would very much love to share my precious moments with everyone.

Last year on this very month,

I was on the hospital bed, fighting for my life.

This year brings a totally new life for me.

Thank you to those who stood by me.

Thank you to everyone for making the day such a memorable one for me.

Thank you for making me a princess for the day.

Thank you for the priceless feeling ever!

More pictures?

Next week perhaps?

2009-08-07T12:26:00.006+08:00

August 1st 2009 marks the most memorable day of my life.
And with this ring,
I'm officially engaged to Gadaffi aka Mr B.

It was a day filled with lots of tears, love and laughter.

After 27 years,

Finally this dream of mine becomes a sweet reality.

Mr B,

Thank you for loving me despite my flaws and all...

Love you with all my heart :)

2009-07-28T15:06:00.003+08:00

A very RED Liverpool fanatics.

Oh please,

I was forced to be part of them!

Thanks love for getting me the ticket and Tshirt :)

And of course,

A very blue birthday bash & pre engagement party!

Thanks a million everyone for making the night a blast :)

Yup, truth is..

I'm getting engaged this weekend!

Wish me well peeps!

Till next week.

2009-07-21T10:18:00.002+08:00

Nervous.

Anxious.

Excited.

Contented.

Those 4 words best describe what I'm feeling at this very moment.

Well, the day is getting nearer and I'm like all mixed up!

Looking forward to celebrating love's and my birthday this coming Friday,

An advanced birthday bash that is.

And next weekend,

We are finally giving this relationship a name : )

Help pray everything will go well for us.

Dear Allah,

Thank you for all the blessings,

For all the smiles,

For all the challenges,

For making us see the good and the bad,

For all the love and faith.

For all and everything Ya Allah.

Thank you.

2009-07-13T09:50:00.004+08:00

2009 have been a great year so far.

Despite being ill,

I'm glad I managed to overcome everything with great faith.

Of course,

Yours truly admits being such a party animal these days,

But worry not,

My limitations in life is still in check :)

Of course,

With so many events coming up in a few weeks time,

My days are all filled up.

Truth is,

Im excited.

Cos after 27 years,

I finally found what I really wanted in this life.

Well, my journey wasn't easy at all.

But syukur for all the blessings,

I believe Allah still loves me afterall.

What the future holds for me,

That I will never know,

But insyallah, Allah will bless with great faith to carry on.

I've put everything behind to indulge myself in this new begininning.

I hope and pray everything will go well from now on.

The past shall all be buried, for good.

I lost some friends along the way,

Made some new ones along the journey,

But some still stood by me all these years.

For all and everything,

I can never hope for anything better.

Please help pray for my humble beginning,

I may have offended some of you in any way or so,

To err is human they say,

And if in this life,

We are not destined to be connected in any form,

Let's just face fate the way it is and carry on.

I am truly contented with whatever that I have now,

My life may be simple,

But they say,

Simplicity beats it all.

Turning 27 and becoming a wife really soon is something I've always dream of.

And yes,

My dream is finally becoming a reality.

I love my man with all my heart,

For that,

Please pray for our happiness.

And of course,

Please help pray I'll always be blessed with faith always.

Cos in this life,

Faith is the only thing tat keeps me going.

Till next week :)

2009-07-06T10:29:00.004+08:00

Oh hello there!

Here I am again,

Back with some little updates :)

Nothing much to write about.

Everything is on the right track,

Everything seems fine.

Although we do have some ongoing fueds along the way with some ungrateful bunch,

But again,

I find it a waste of my precious time to even brood over it.

With so many other great things coming up,

Why must I even bother to think of such childish acts!

Of course, I'll get busier as August is coming nearer.

Nevertheless, it's something I'm very much looking forward to.

We have so much to plan to be honest and it's really getting more and more exciting.

Besides planning for our event in August,

We're also planning a party for some friends to celebrate our 27th!

Definitely not a fancy birthday bash or anything lavish,

Just some great moments with the usual suspects.

Here's counting down to 2 great events coming up really soon.

Meanwhile, lets all be good and nice ya?

No need to create any unnecessary disputes and nasty bashing,

If you really don't have it,

Admit it.

If your reputation is tarnished and that's the truth,

Accept it.

Cos if you have not started this stupid catfight,

I would have let it go as well.

But since you wanna play,

Well, you just found yourself an opponent.

And oh,

I dun let my man do the calling,

I have a voice of my own.

Do you?

I'm a drama queen,

That I can never deny.

So yes,

Bring it on.

*flips hair*

2009-06-25T11:53:00.003+08:00

I'm definitely in high spirits lately,

All excited for the upcoming events!

July will be our birthday month, of course.

August this year will be the most memorable ever for us, at least :)

I promise this blog will be updated always.

For you all who still loves me,

And for you all who hates me but still wanna have bits of my life,

Dun worry,

I'll make sure the news will never lapse :)

Meanwhile,

Pardon me for the lack of update at times,

Yours truly is busy as a bee!

With all the preparations, parties, friends and family issues,

I'm all drained out!

Worry not again,

More pictures coming up really soon.

But if you want more,

Wait till August can??

2009-06-12T15:23:00.002+08:00

In my life when everything almost went wrong,

Something finally went right.

And at that very moment,

My whole life just changed.

Here's counting down to the day I've always dream of!

Insyallah, it will a great start to an already blissful relationship.

Love you sayang :)

2009-06-10T16:28:00.003+08:00

A ring on my finger,

A ring on his too.

What does that means?

I'm sure many would have guessed even without me telling.

Cos I heard myself,

Those who dun matter actually knew of my upcoming event.

Nevertheless, I hope you people will be happy for me ya!

And yes indeed,

The 300 bucks will definitely help lessen the expenses for my upcoming event.

So when are you gonna pay up, Miss Cheong?

*smiles*

2009-06-03T16:04:00.002+08:00

Because each time I'm with you,

Nothing else matters anymore.

Here's to many more great moments together.

*hugz*

2009-05-27T14:50:00.010+08:00

Miss me?

Well, I'm back.

Maybe for just a bit =)

Been really busy lately.

Work, Family, Friends and of course spending as much time I can with Mr B.

Health wise,

Not really good,to be honest.

But nothing critical to worry about.

Still on medication and alhamdulillah no flares lately.

I guess as long as I'm taking medication on a daily basis,

I'll be on the right track.

As promised,

This blog will never be left unattended.

I'll keep it updated at most times, insyallah.

But yet again,

Dun expect anything personal to be shared here.

Random entries with sweet pictures perhaps?

As I mention,

I'll hang my blogging boots for good.

But a little update like this won't do any harm right?*blush*

And yes of course,

I can't wait to post pretty pictures coming this August.

Pictures of all my loved ones and me smiling brightly,hopefully.

An event I'm eagerly looking forward to!

Cos finally, my dream is becoming a sweet reality.

But all that will have to wait,

Cos August is still 2 odd months to come.

For the following weeks or so,

Please make do with my lame pictures and entries ya!

And if you ungrateful bunch are still reading this,

Yup,

Maybe you all should continue hearing JT's karma hit,

" what goes around, comes around "

Karma hit me bad with Lupus as prove.

Have Karma hit you bunch yet?

*smirks*

2009-05-22T10:36:00.003+08:00

They say true friends stick like glue.

Well, I'm afraid those who don't fit will have to make their way.

Maybe it's true,

I do change bff every year.

My expectations are that high afterall.

Anna & Frosty,

Cheers to 5 years of unpredictable bitchy friendship.

2009-05-13T13:22:00.002+08:00

Dear Mohd Gadaffi,

You may not be my first love,

But let me assure you,

You will be my last and the only true love in this life of mine.

We have gone through so much as one,

We have been through hell and rough moments together,

But alhamdulillah,

We are still here,

Very much in love still.

I can't wait for the day we finally put a name to our relationship.

August may be just a few months in count,

And I promise,

We'll smile all the way till the day comes!

Insyallah, despite all the hurdles,

We'll make the day the most memorable for us in 2009.

I'll keep this blog updated still,

Despite the rumours and all.

I promise.

2009-04-27T09:37:00.004+08:00

Time for a little update?

I think so... *smiles*

I think I'll make a point to make a full update every once awhile.

Just to keep some who keeps coming back here posted.

Like I mentioned before,

I still have a few hundreds of you coming back still.

My stat shows readers from legal companies to schools even!

Sorry teachers if my usage of English isn't that polished.*grinz*

Nevertheless, thank you for coming back and taking time keeping up with my life.

Alhamdulillah, life have been kind to me.

My illness is much under control.

But trust me, popping steroids every single day is so not fun!

This have become a routine & honestly,

I'm beginning to live with it.

Lupus may not be deadly,

But it's such a tiring illness to start with.

Needles have been my new best friend ever since.

Monthly blood test & reviews are essential.

Thats how I keep my health in check.

But syukur for the faith HE bless me with,

I'm all good and coping well.

Alhamdulillah.

So yes, life is good for now.

I've so many thing to look forward to.

Great things to be precise!

Syukur, everything in life is taking place almost perfectly.

Allah must have heard my prayers and let me live in comfort again.

For every heartbreak & tears I've wasted,

I'm sure, Allah have every reason for all that I've went thru.

No regrets.

As a matter of fact,

I thank Allah for making me go through that miserable path.

Cos if I've not been through that rough patches in life,

I would still be blinded by all the nasty people around me.

With Allah's grace now,

I'm happily living life with my family,

I'm cherishing every sweet moments with Mr B,

I'm also very fortunate to have endless support from many great friends.

You see,

Life is never a bed of roses to begin with, for me at least.

I'm a 27 year old woman trying very hard to make everything in life fall in place.

My expectation is life is different.

I look forward for the future.

I'm not looking back anymore.

If I were someone who's only 22-23 years of age,

Maybe I'll consider taking risks in life.

But nope,

I'm not that young anymore.

And nope,

I'm not that stupid to fall in love blindly with any Tom, Dick & Harry.

I dare not take the risk of being with any more wrong people in life.

I've learnt my lesson,

I've learnt it well.

And they say,

As you grow older,

You'll grow wiser.

Here's an advise to young ladies out there,

From someone who have went through hell before,

From someone much older,

Never be blinded by love.

Be in love,

Cos love is a great feeling,

But never let love take control of your life.

You decide the path you wanna take,

Nobody else can help you if you don't help yourself.

I'm very thankful that Allah manage to not only open up my eyes,

HE cleared my heart & mind as well.

Mr B and myself have gone through 2 years of our lives together.

As a matter of fact,

I'm beginning to believe it's not abt the years you spent together that matters,

It's all abt the commitment, the effort & most importantly, the trust.

I may not be that perfect role model to be advising on relationship issues,

But my experiences in life have taught me alot, indeed.

They say, the best lessons in life are when you realise your mistakes and learn from it.

I've made many silly and impulsive actions before.

And there's no way I'm gonna take the risk of jeopardizing all that I have now.

The future may still be a mystery,

But life is a gift.

I'm embracing every moment of it.

My illness is not a setback in this life.

The world will not stop for my grief.

I'm thankful I still have love all around me.

In this life,

It's not about potraying a happy smiling picture each & everytime.

It's all about knowing what lies ahead of us.

My life is simple but yet I'm honestly contented.

Let's just say,

The past should always remain the past.

Some people will just have to stop worrying that I'll be a threat in their lives.

Some people can go on and say all the nasty things about me.

Truth is, it doesn't seem to hurt me anymore.

Cos it does not matter what others may think.

It's all about those who matters to me that counts.

Cos my life now, although nothing to be envied of,

It's all good and peaceful.

I have Mr B with me with his endless love & devotion,

Although me not being that perfect anymore,

That man stood by me all this time.

How can I not be thankful?

You tell me.

The smiles painted of my face were all treasured times I embraced.

I love life as it is now.

I'm not hoping for anything more or less.

Life is good,

Life is simple,

Life is almost complete.

Till my next update.

Please keep your securities in check lovelies.

Honestly, insecurities in life sucks!

Love your men,

Trust yourself.

Spread love and be thankful to Allah everyday.

Till next time.

Salam.

2009-04-20T10:36:00.005+08:00

Dear Mr B,

I wanna love for who you are,

I wanna love your flaws and imperfections,

I wanna take risk of getting hurt just being by your side,

I wanna make you happy in this life,

I wanna be with you forever.

I promise,

I'll always be here.

With you.

Aku Mau - Once

2009-04-12T23:38:00.002+08:00

In most pictures,

It's been always the both of us smiling and snapping away.

We may not be picture perfect together,

But at least I know,

You complete me.

Insyallah in time to come,

We'll still be smiling proudly in all our pictures,

But this time,

It'll not only be the 2 of us.

But a complete family potrait instead.

Dear Mr B,

I can't wait to embark on a new journey with you.

Alhamdulillah, our relationship still stand the test of time.

With lots of blessings,trust and endless love,

May we both stand tall and never let go.

Insyallah.

2009-04-06T09:47:00.004+08:00

A beautiful black & white wedding.

A very delightful bestfriend's happiest day.

A union of 2 hearts as one.

A much anticipated day for both Mr B and myself.

4 lovely bridesmaids who worked really hard for 2 whole days.

8 of us who loves the bride & groom dearly.

And of course, we are one very happy couple to begin with *smiles*

I simply love weddings!

It was a great feeling seeing my bestfriend finally being a wife.

The wedding was awesome.

My bestfriend look fabulous.

Her black & white deco was amazing.

We, the 4 bridesmaids were well coordinated.

Last but never the least,

Kamal & Shikin were one very happy husband & wife.

Here's to a lifetime of happiness my dear bestfriend.

Insyallah, life will be all good for you both.

Now,

Who's in the list next?

*huge grinz*

Salam'

2009-04-02T10:11:00.003+08:00

The most amazing time spent is while having a nice meal together.

Great conversation over food is one of the many things we love doing as a couple.

With so many great things we enjoy doing together,

That is how we manage to keep the relationship alive.

I love Mr B for the man he is.

I love all the fun & intimate time we share at most times.

We live once,

We love once,

We die once.

Let's have the best of both worlds,shall we?

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-03-30T11:16:00.005+08:00

Our 2nd anniversary was nothing but sweet.

With a well deserved time spent,

A bouquet of red roses to make me smile,

Simply delicious chocolate cake that melts in the mouth,

A wonderful dinner with good food to round up the night.

Dear Mr B,

We might have our rough days as a couple,

We might get on each others' nerves at most times.

But all is good even after 2 years now.

Thank you for the great 3 days you planned for me.

No words can describe how grateful I'm feeling now.

Awesome time spent.

Wonderful experience felt.

Most importantly,

It made us both more complete, as one.

For all and everything love,

Thank you.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-03-26T15:21:00.003+08:00

I am a firm believer of love.

I believe that love know no boundaries.

When you love someone,

You love them for who they really are.

When you love someone,

You love them despite their flaws and all.

Love is all about sacrifice.

Love is abt not expecting anything in return.

Love is abt 2 individuals sharing their heart & soul and making it one.

Love is all abt passion and true feelings.

Love is never ever abt sex.

I wonder if in this life,

If anyone thinks sex is everything worth then a marriage?

Cos I am totally against it.

Marriage is a lifetime vow.

Sex?

It's just a pure excitement that ends when the pleasure is over.

Love is not based on sex or pleasure.

It's when 2 people entrust their whole life together.

That is love.

Love is not lust.

Love is love.

Simple as that.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-03-19T11:08:00.004+08:00

It's been long huh?

I know I've mentioned that I'm gonna hang my blogging boots for good.

But this one is an exceptional.

Just a little update on what's been happening since I've been away from the blogging world.

Since my departure,

I have to admit that my stat reads had gone down tremendously.

From 1000 odd visitors per day,

I have now only 200+ of you people still coming back to view whats left on this webpage.

Most of my readers have moved to join me in Multiply instead.

I still blog and post many pictures of my life in my private multiply page.

I only give access to selected few whom I trust.

If you're not in my limited contacts,

I'm sorry, things are a little more under wraps right now.

Or should I simply say,

Life is more personal.

It's been a year since I last wrote a lengthy entry.

I'm not sure when I will ever write again,

But like I mentioned,

This entry is exceptional.

This entry is specially for those who still keeps coming back for a little update.

I'm doing fine, syukur alhamdulillah.

Life has been treating me well so far.

A few hiccups along the way, but still manageable.

A year since I've been missing from the blogging scene was definitely worthwhile.

I did a lot of soul searching, a lot of thinking to be precise.

Trust me, as much life has been smooth sailing,

There were still obstacles along the way.

But with patience and perserverance,

Alhamdulillah, I managed to get myself in shape once more.

All thanks to the important people in my life,

Things got better each day.

Things got under control.

There's a saying,

Friends come & go.

Family will stay by you for a lifetime.

I stood firm to that saying.

Cos without my family,

I can never make it this far.

A few friends made their way from my life.

Of course, with all the drama,it was a little harsh.

But as time goes by,

You begin to believe that it's not abt the quantity but the quality that matters.

I still have great friends who stood by me thru it all,

I can never be more thankful for anything else.

For those who were no longer a part of my life,

It's been great while it lasted, no regrets.

With family, some great friends and of course, my man,

Life is almost close to perfect.

It's a miracle that Mr B stood my me all this while.

Despite going through a rough time together,

I believe that it made the relationship even stronger.

He is everything that I dream of.

He completes me.

For all the tears and heartbreaks we both have went thru,

We still hold on tight at the end of the day.

I may not know what the future holds for us both,

But I'm praying hard, Allah created him just for me.

I've made many mistakes before.

I've blinded myself with empty promises long ago,

But Allah have definitely open up my heart & my mind.

I know the future is still a mystery,

But I sure hope in many years to come,

I still have these bunch of people in my life, still.

I'm certain that this time round,

Allah bless me with a true love,

Cos despite my flaws and all,

My man stood firm beside me, wiping my every tears.

I was diagnosed with an incurable disease a few months ago.

That was the most difficult moment in my life.

I am a Lupus patient living on steroids every single day just to keep me going.

I can't go under the sun or enjoy any beach activites in the daytime.

My life is controlled.

A slight trauma or a day without medication would cause me alot.

Allah gave me such a test for me to prove just how much I can endure.

It was hard, really hard.

But I'm glad to say, I managed to accept everything with an open heart.

My illness is incurable,I am aware of that.

That does not mean I'm giving up hope and wasting my life.

I have so much to live for,

So much dreams yet fulfilled.

I'm blessed that even after I was diagnosed,

I woke up every single day, seeing Mr B by my bedside for 11 long days I was hospitalized.

That man stood by me, love me & cried for me.

How can I not love him with all my heart?

Months have passed and I'm coping pretty well with the illness.

Things are going smoothly and I can't be any happier.

So many things to look forward to this year and I can't wait to be a part of them.

My best friend is becoming a wife in April,

I am turning a ripe 27 in July,

But all that are not the reasons for this lengthy update.

The reason for this entry is simple.

I'm proud to say that I survived 2 years of great companionship with this man.

Thank you once again for the tremendously awesome dinner.

You've done so much to make me feel like the luckiest woman on earth!

Here's to many more anniversaries in later years.

I've said this,

And I'm saying this again,

I love you, with every beat of my heart.

Thank you for being the man in my life.

Thank you for everything that you've done.

Thank you for letting me a part of your great family and friends.

Thank you for staying by me even when I'm not that perfect anymore.

Last but not the least,

Thank you for the lovely time last night.

It was really nice just by spending time with you.

Thank you everyone for taking time reading up on this bit of my life.

There might only be a few hundreds of you left,

But yet again,

Thank you for still coming by and the emails sent at times.

When I will ever update with a lengthy entry like this one, God noes.

Definitely a nice feeling having a chance to write again.

Salam.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-03-18T14:39:00.003+08:00

1 more day to our 2nd anniversary,

1 more day to us celabrating 730 days together,

1 more day to us spending nice moments as one.

I never wish for nothing else, just love.

I wish for a relationship filled with trust and endless passion.

I wish in many more years to come,

I can hold our bundle of joy and declare our love to everyone out there.

Dear Mr B,

Tomorrow is a very special day for us both.

Who would expect our love would go this far.

Thank you for always being there,

Thank you for your endless love and comfort,

Thank you accepting me for what I truly am.

For all and everything that you've done,

Thank you.

p.s I love you...

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-03-09T09:30:00.002+08:00

When I first met you,

I was all broken hearted.

When I first met you,

I never thought I would fall in love this much.

When I first met you,

I never thought we would go thru life this far.

You gave me hope,

You gave me life.

You proved to me,

That in good times or bad,

You will always be there,

Holding my hand,

Never letting go.

Our love journey is filled with tears and laughter,

Our love journey consist of lots of sacrifices,

Our love journey is filled with memories,

Memories of us spending splendid moments together.

I have met many wrong people in life,

I have wasted years of my life and lived in regret.

But one thing I'm sure of,

I never made a mistake dedicating my life to you.

Cheers to us,

We managed to overcome all the obstacles as one.

Despite all the rumors and mistakes we both have done,

Alhamdulillah, we still stick as one.

p.s I will always be buah hati you, love...

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-03-02T09:22:00.002+08:00

No one knew every fall,

No one understands every tear,

Coz we can never know whats install,

That makes us live in fear.

But its part and parcel of life,

Only the strongest will survive...

We have to learn from our mistakes,

So we will know which path to take.

I want to taste life like never before,

So that I will appreciate it even more.

I want us to know that theres more to life than this,

And lets always believe that love do exist.

Dear Mr B,

I want you to know how much I care,

If you need me,

I'll always be there...

And till the day my life is through...

This... I promise you...

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-02-23T09:46:00.005+08:00

Cos each time I see that perfect bond,

Cos each time I see that lovely smile,

Cos each time I see how comfortable you are with kids,

I can't wait to have one in my arms and call it, ours.

I dun only only see you as my life partner,

I see you as the man in my life,

I see you as the the head of the family,

I see you as the father of my kids.

And yes, I see us having a complete family.

Insyallah.

Dear Mr B,

Its been 23 months of good & bad times together.

Can't wait to celebrate our 2nd year as one really soon!

And of course,

Many other good things later to come.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-02-18T13:50:00.005+08:00

10 Things I Love About You.

1. You're kind, always willing to help anyone & everyone.

2. You're simply sweet, always entertaining my silly odd questions.

3. You will take me anywhere & everywhere, regardless of time & place.

4. You were there by my side when I was sick & helpess, pushing my wheelchair and secretly sharing your cup noodle with me!

5. You make me love cats! I love your Cougar ok!

6. You 'kepo²' and begin to enjoy all my favourite food and now I always have to share them with you! Hmmph!

7. You will wear anything that I bought you, like it or not. :p

8. Your endless nagging and making sure I took my medication daily.

9. You love kids, just like me! Baby girls are still the cutest! *bluek*

10. Becos you love me, just like how much I love you.

Dear Mr B,

I found a masterpiece in you,

A work of art so true.

And yes love,

I so treasure you.

Believe me,

Its true.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-02-11T13:38:00.005+08:00

You love a woman,

Tell her she's really wanted.

You love a woman,

Tell her she's the one.

You gotta breathe her,

Really taste her,

So that you can feel her in your blood.

And when you can finally see your unborn children in her eyes,

Then you will really know,

That you finally love a woman.

Dear Mr B,

You make me feel like that all the time.

I promise to be there for you now, later & forever.

Thank you for loving me, always.

For I swear to love you as much,
Just as much as the love you showered me with all this while.
Here's a toast to a lifetime of endless love, insyallah.
May Allah bless us both with faith and lots of love till eternity.
Hugz & Kisses,
Your Woman.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-02-06T10:53:00.016+08:00

We both know the road is long,

We both know that only time will tell it all,

And we both also know that we will eventually be together afterall,

Someday.

One day.

You are forever in my heart,

Cos You proved to be the right one afterall.

And yes, I finally found the love of a lifetime.
That person is you.

Cos for everything that Allah have taken away from me,

Alhamdulillah, HE replace it with something even better.

May that smile never be taken away from me,

As I wanna live this life happily loving you.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-02-02T10:59:00.003+08:00

Counting down to the day we first met,

Counting down to the day we first hold hands,

Counting down to the days we first become one.

I made many mistakes before.

I made many wrong decisions in life.

I made many wrong moves that caused me so much.

But I finally did something right,

When I said YES to you.

2 more months to our 2Nd anniversary together.

Thank you for all the joy & tears.

Thank you for all the presents.

Thank you for all the good and bad times together.

Cos you not only make me a better person in life,

You also make me feel like the luckiest woman alive.

For all and everything, Mr B.

Thank you.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-01-28T10:31:00.003+08:00

No one can make me cry so hard,

No one can make me smile so bright,

But you.

Cos I cherish every moment spent with you.

And cos I noe,

Only you can make me feel so right,

In good times or bad.

I'm looking forward to many more years ahead with you,love.

Let's hold hands and never let go.

And let people say what they wanna say,

Cos at the end of the day,

Its only abt you and me.

Abt us.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-01-23T09:23:00.005+08:00

Smile even if the heart is breaking,

Smile even if nobody understands,

Smile even if there are tears in your eyes,

Smile always,

Cos insyallah behind that smile,

There will much better things ahead that awaits us.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-01-12T10:57:00.004+08:00

Dear Love,

Thanks for realising that my heart is true,

Thanks for taking me out of the blue,

I'm always contented with a lot of things,

But nothing can compare to the joys that you bring.

I can't describe how much happiness you brought into my life,

But for sure, you are the reason that i'm alive.

How much you mean to me no one understands,

You are just like an Angel that God sends...

I've been searching everywhere...

I always knew that someone like you is rare,

I won't forget you, i promise, i swear.

Dear Mr B,

I love you.

With every beat of my heart.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2009-01-01T15:56:00.002+08:00

2008 have come to an end...

2009 will arrive with new hopes and blessings insyallah.....

From both Mr B and myself,

Here's wishing you all a splendid 2009!

May Allah bless you all with never ending happiness always & forever...

And to you my love,

May 2009 be a better year for us both..

Thank you for being a part of me.

p.s thank you for the kind emails! will reply at the soonest!

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-12-20T18:53:00.002+08:00

Cos 21 months have passed by,

Cos 21 months was spent together going thru all the ups and downs.

Cos after 21 months it is still us, hanging on.

Here's counting down to our 2nd year together as one.

Dear Mr B,

I maybe fat & ugly now,

I maybe sickly and all drained out,

But insyallah,

You will stand by me,

Giving me hope to live this life once more.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-12-14T02:44:00.004+08:00

People say..

We may not be picture perfect together.

People say...

We may not even be suitable for one another.

Let people say what they wanna say...

Cos you're the answer to my lonely prayer.

And I can't thank Allah enough for all his blessings.

Definitely a reason for the smile painted on my face....

For all the tears and laughters...

It is still you Mr B.

Let's hold hands and never let go...

Insyallah, Allah have better plans for us both.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-12-09T10:42:00.002+08:00

Becos Allah create a soulmate for everyone.

I found mine.

Mr B found his.

And after almost 2 years of ups & downs,

We definitely realise that love will always keep us alive.

You make me cry,

You make me smile,

And despite it all,

You're still the one I love.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-12-05T13:23:00.003+08:00

Im Blessed.

With a wonderful Mummy

A Sweet Love.

Gorgeous Ladies

And a best friend, called my sister.

Dear Allah, thank you for all those blessings.

I will never trade these people for anything in this world.

Despite my life not being that perfect,

I have all these wonderful souls to make it all more worthwhile

For that Ya Allah,

Syukur Alhamdulillah

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-11-20T21:47:00.011+08:00

" .... kerana setiap kali Allah menduga kami,

Ia kerana Allah ingin meninggikan darjat kami sebagai seorang manusia...."

For all that Allah have put me through,

Im sure HE must have reasons for everything.
Insyallah with the never ending love and concern from people all around me,
I will survive and be strong enuff to continue on living this life.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

p.s cos i can never imagine myself with anyone else.. but you.

2008-11-17T10:34:00.003+08:00

Becos being sick doesn't mean I dun deserve a chance to live.

Prayers and well wishes are very much appreciated.

Insyallah, with grace from the Alimighty,

I will live the remaining days of my life treasuring every minute of it.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-11-10T15:42:00.005+08:00

Cos in this life,

I'm not only blessed with

A True Love,

Who loves me unconditionally.

Indeed, I'm blessed with such wonderful souls.

My True Friends.

Who never once judged despite all the odds.

Thank you all for being such a fantastic bunch.

I could never have made it this far without you all.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-10-22T00:33:00.003+08:00

We may not be perfect for one another,

But at least I noe,

Despite my flaws and all,

You still complete me.

Thank you Mr B for always being there.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-10-08T10:48:00.003+08:00

Salam Lebaran 2008

Menyusun Sepuluh Jari Memohon Ampun & Maaf.

Semoga Diberkati Allah, Insyallah.

nadyacamelia.multiply.com

2008-08-20T11:41:00.002+08:00

Get In Touch.

nadyacamelia.multilply.com

p.s : strictly for the TRUSTED ones only.

2008-05-21T14:34:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Baby Shukri !!!

Thank you for being such a sweetheart the last 2 weeks.

Happy Birthday to YOU as well.

For all that you have done,
I just have one wish for you.
MAY YOU ROT IN HELL!
Insyallah.
What do you expect?
A nice comfy birthday wish?
Thank your lucky stars I dun have your name plastered all over this blog.
Asshole.
*big smile*

p.s if you dun get to read this, Im pretty sure your sidekicks will update you on my entry. Cheers!

2008-05-02T11:55:00.002+08:00

" Jodoh itu rahsia Allah. "

My heart fell apart upon hearing that.

I was watching the making of Ayat Ayat Cinta,

The very sensational movie almost everyone is talking about.

And when I heard Aisyah saying that to her husband,

As so that he would marry the other woman,

I wonder,

If a woman like that ever exist in this world.

N I also wonder,

If a man like Fahrin,

Still lingers in our modern lifestyle.

Watching a movie like Ayat Ayat Cinta is indeed an eye opener.

The director of that movie claims,

He wanted to showcase the movie to the whole world,

The value of love in Islamic eyes.

While watching bits of the movie,

I was tremendously touched by the script, cast and the message the movie is trying to put across.

Its been awhile since I watched something with great moral values.

Im sure it would be a wonderful experience.

They say,

A great movie is when those words touched you deep in the heart,

" Aku ingin menjadi yang halal, Yg kau kucup kening nya. "

Deep in my heart,

I wanna be wedded and belong to someone,

That man I can look upon in good times and bad,

That man I know will pick me up each time I fall,

That man I know who will look me in the eyes with love and faith,

That man I can proudly tell the whole world,

"Dia lah suami ku, Yg halal. "

Oh my,

A bit dramatic huh?

But dun blame me,

Being a woman,

Im sure all of us will have a soft spot for things like this,

Rite?

Salam everyone'

2008-04-29T21:50:00.002+08:00

What doesn't kill me,

Will only make me stronger.

Insyallah,

I will live my life,

With faith,

And a smile on my face.

Always.

God bless.

Salam'

2008-04-28T16:52:00.003+08:00

Dun blame me when things dun go your way.

Dun blame me and drag me into your love story.

Dun get me involved in things that I never had a clue of.

Dun ever spread untrue rumours when you dun even noe me, that is.

Dun get emotional and accuse me when things dun work out.

You are a woman,

Never bring another woman down,

Just to make yourself look good in the eyes of others.

That is definitely not the way to live.

And yes,

You obviously seem like a stalker to me.

With the continuous blog reading and all.

Please,

Get a hold of yourself.

A gentle advice,

Watch that mouth young lady.

Cos I may not know you personally,

But yes,

Walls have ears,

They say.

*sigh*

2008-04-25T09:30:00.002+08:00

Oh God,

Its Friday.

If only my leave was approved,

If only the clients postponed their visit,

If only I have lesser things to do at the office,

If only all the other situations were pretty much resolved,

If only that last weekend could do us both good,

I would be in KL at this very moment,

Enjoying my break,

Shopping and partying.

Damn.

On a brighter note,

Its FRIDAY!

I hope and pray for a fine weekend.

It doesn't have to be good and exciting.

Im hoping it would be pleasant and sweet.

I hope.

I wish.

Have a lovely weekend you all.

Lots of love.

Salam'

2008-04-23T09:25:00.003+08:00

I have been incredibly busy at werk lately.

Seriously,

I am all worn out.

I requested for a day leave this coming Friday,

Was thinking of taking a short break.

But then again,

My request was rejected.

I am required to help set up a meeting for an important client instead.

My hands are all tied up.

I have tons of things in the list that I have not work on as yet.

This is the first time my boss actually entrusted me with such a huge task.

I am really hoping Friday's meeting would turn out well.

But yet again,

Werk is NOT tat bad afterall.

I love the friendly people here,

I love the lively mood in the office,

I love everything here,

Enuff said.

N guess wat?

The company even allows us to use MSN at werk ok!

How abt tat!

At least my mind won't be too occupied with werk during the office hours.

Nevertheless,

I am definitely missing someone.

I just hope things will be better soon enuff.

He still holds the key to my heart, indeed.

Im looking forward for a nice lovely weekend.

Its gonna be a tiring week at werk,

No doubt.

So yeah,

Hoping for a relaxing weekend this time round.

Oh yes,

Pics of our simple fondue get together is up!

Click Here.

Thanks Sri love for the pic.

Be good all.

Salam'

2008-04-21T10:34:00.004+08:00

It seems like everyone around me are expecting newborns!

Yeah,

I am like so envious of them all.

Recently I heard from Frosty abt a blogmate of mine who will be expecting twins!

I had a quick chat with Alynn this morning and I am all excited for her.

Well,

Babies definitely make my day.

But then,

There is this one that will be due anytime from now,

We were praying hard the tummy didn't burst last weekend while we were all having fondue party.

Dear Kak Janna,

I soo can't wait to see your baby!

N Im sure,

All the other 'godmums' can't wait to cuddle him too!

Oh btw,

Weekends was nice and simple.

Modestos, Fondue Party & Dinner @ Villa Bali was sweet.

Pictures will be up realli soon.

Stay tuned.

Salam'

2008-04-18T10:40:00.004+08:00

I received a phonecall yesterday.

I was at the office when I was told abt the news.

Shocked, of course.

But the impact was pretty much felt only after I visited the family last nite.

You see,

Someone very dear to me passed away early yesterday morning.

I might not see him often enuff,

But he surely is worth remembering.

When I was much younger,

I used to help mum a lot at the stall,

Esp during the school holidays,

I will wake up as early as 3 am in the morning to help her out.

Sometimes,

It would be straight to the stall after a nite of partying,

Yeah no joke!

Anyway, back to the story.

As I used to spend much time at the stall,

I made pretty close contacts with the people there.

Mostly the older generation.

You see,

I always have this soft spot for the elderly.

I yearn for those warm friendly gestures from someone much older.

Grandparents,to be precise.

I lost mine when I was really young.

So I kinda envied those who spent their weekends visiting their grandparents'.

But nevertheless,

Since my mum had plenty of regular patrons who are mostly the residents nearby,

And most of them are the older generation people,

I took the opportunity and got really close with them.

Esp this particular grandpa who passed on peacefully yesterday.

He was a great guy.

He was really sweet, gentle and never failed to present me with his sweetest smile.

He will always come to say hi every morning if he saw me at the stall.

With that newspaper on one hand,

He will always let me kiss his right hand each time he comes by.

Then with that sparkle in his eyes,

He will remind me to take good care of myself and be good.

To make things all even sweeter,

He was blessed with a wonderful family.

His wife is an amazing woman and they have been married for more than 40 years.

Nonetheless,

He was also blessed with caring kids and grandchildren as well.

All of their family members are kinda close to me and my mum,

So that explains why his death was a bit harsh on me.

You see,

Since the last 9 years,

He had seen me grown.

I remember the day when my dad passed away,

He came to visit me at the stall with the most motivational words.

Since then,

I knew that man was someone I can share my soft spot with.

Trust me,

For the last 9 years,

I still receive a green packet and a bar of snickers on every Hari Raya.

But this year,

I am sure gonna miss it from him. *sob*

Last nite,

I cancelled my dinner plans just to go over to his place to pay my last respect.

My family went over last nite after our isyak prayers.

I was totally devastated when I saw that elderly woman all worned out sitting on the couch.

She was devastated.

When I look into her eyes,

My heart breaks.

She hugged me really tight,

And I nearly broke down tat very moment.

I felt the loss, really.

She is someone who stood by her husband all this while.

I always envied how close they both were despite more than 40 years of marriage.

Recently, when the husband got ill,

She will be the one going down to the stall buying food and attending to him.

A woman of great faith I must say.

I regret not finding that time to visit Atuk.

Oh yes,

I called him Atuk since 9 years ago.

I should have spared that little time to visit tat old man when he was alive.

His wife claimed that he keeps asking for me each time she return home after buying food from the stall for him.

Now its too late.

I only have memories of him sealed in my mind,in my heart.

He is just to sweet to be forgotten just like tat.

Honestly,

He let me had the chance to feel how having a grandpa is like.

Im glad,

Allah sent me an angel like him.

But my heart goes out to his wife.

I wonder how she will cope with the loss.

Imagine waking up for the last 40 years having that face beside you,

Today,

She will wake up to an empty space on her bed,

That face will no longer smile at her every morning when she wakes up.

Gosh,

My heart is breaking as I am typing this.

I can imagine how painful it is losing that someone you love.

Devoting your whole life to that person,

And you never will noe,

When that person will be taken away from you.

Seriously,

Im gonna miss Atuk.

But Im sure,

His family will tend to miss him even more.

May Allah bless his soul, insyallah.

N yes,

This is definitely a wake up call for me.

Appreciate those you love,

Never take them for granted.

Love them for who they really are.

Cos when you love someone,

You accept them despite all their flaws,

You cherish them altho how hard it may seems,

Appreciate and respect.

Tat will gurantee a blissful wedded life.

Just like Atuk & Nenek,

I hope when the day comes for me,

I will stand by my man regardless of anything and everything,

I wanna grow old and care for him,

Likewise,

I hope he still loves me,

Despite all the wrinkles and menopause.

And insyallah,

Even after 40 years of marriage.

Enuff said,

My last respect to my favourite Atuk.

Im sure he is with my dad now,

In heaven.

Salam'

2008-04-14T13:42:00.002+08:00

Busy.

Yes, I am that BUSY afterall.

Will be back very soon.

Meanwhile,

Be good everyone!

Mafia babes,

Dun forget our date this Friday.

Venue checked.

Time checked.

Dress code checked.

I can't wait to meet all 4 of you!

Oooopss..

Before I end this one,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE BIRD!!!!

We hope you like your present.

Mahal ok! *bluek*

Till then,

Salam'

2008-04-10T16:10:00.001+08:00

Since I started working at the heart of Raffles Place,

Its been quite a leisure going to werk, realli.

Unlike those days where I have to rush in the morning to catch the 6.30am train.

Now,

I can leave home at 8am as werk will only start an hour later.

And if I decide to head home right after werk,

It will be home sweet home for me as early as 6pm!

Yup,

Such a breather indeed.

The only setback of werking in this metropolitan area is during the peak hours.

The human traffic is horrendous!

And of course,

I have to dress up quite a bit in the morning before I leave for werk.

You see,

Everyone in Raffles Place dress to kill ok!

So of course,

Yours truly dont wanna be left out. Heh.

But yet again,

I am missing my peeps at Jurong Island still.

We do exchange emails everyday,

Meet up for dinner often enuff,

We are THAT close afterall.

5 years contributing my effort in SembCorp have been all worth it.

The day I finally said my final goodbye,

It was like a part of me went missing.

I was blessed with wonderful colleagues and my big boss was excellent to work with.

But like I say,

At this age,

I need to look ahead and move on to better offers.

Syukur,

Its been a pleasure werking with my new bunch of colleagues here.

Situated on the 29th storey right in the middle of Raffles Place,

I get to see the magnificent view of my favourite spot everyday at werk.

Yes,

One Fullerton is such a beautiful sight!

N of course,

3/4 of my office mates are ang mohs.

So werk have been such a joy each day,

Altho trust me,

There are tons of things for me to learn still.

But yeah,

I am missing my peeps in SembCorp.

The farewell party made me teared realli bad.

I miss my coffee lady the most!

She's like my mum at werk hokay!

You noe,

They say being apart from those you love hurts the most.

That one,

I can never deny.

Salam'

2008-04-08T15:34:00.009+08:00

Ok, so i was sabotaged!

I was clearing up my mails and open up this email which says,

YOU OPENED IT..

NOW YOU HAVE TO DO IT OR YOU'LL NEVER

BE WITH THE PERSON YOU LOVE..

AND BE HONEST. . DON'T CHICKEN OUT. . . .

Ok fine!

I wont CHICKEN OUT !!!!

Been a loooonnnggg time since I did something like this one.

So here it goes!

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty?

Ans : None of the above. *lol*

2) Are you happy with that?

Ans: Contented indeed.

3) Would you still kiss your ex?

Ans: Alamak! *lol*

4 ) Have you ever had your heart broken?

Ans: Many many times.

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?

Ans: Ooops!!!

6) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?

Ans:Yup2

7) Do you want children?

Ans: Yes! YEs!

9 ) How Many?

Ans: Hmmm.. as many as I can produce!

10) Would you consider abortion?

Ans: Not at all.

11) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?

Ans: No thanks! I would rather they keep it to themselves.

12) Do you want someone you can't have?

Ans:Oh can i NOT ans that!

13 ) Have you fallen in love?

Ans: Yes, twice.

14) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?

Ans: Definitely!

15) Do you believe that you can change for someone?

Ans: Well it depends. If the request is all worth it.

16) Is it a good day today?

Ans: So far so good. *smiles*

17) Have you ever broken a heart before?

Ans: I think so. *blush*

18 ) Does your ex still have feelings for you?

Ans: Maybe you wanna ask the ex himself?

19)what now you wish for?

Ans: a shopping spree with Trisya next week!

20)if you have bf/gf n0w...do you really love them?

Ans: What a question, of course lah! Duh!

21)what if things dont work out?

Ans: Then perhaps, its just not meant to be.

Ok Im done!

Can't believe I completed all 21 of them!

Again,

Im doing this in the meeting room,

When all of them are talking,

And when my department is done with our presentation.

This is what you call,

Time wasting.Heh.

Salam'

2008-04-07T14:56:00.003+08:00

Weekend was humbly spent with my family this week.

I had a great bonding session with my Trisya and mum,

A lovely birthday dinner at Eatzi Safra with my whole family in celebration of Kakak's 35th B Day,

But most of all,

I spent the weekend nursing my very bad MIGRAINE!

*sigh*

I miss the girly outings with my babes.

Can someone please come up with something?

I badly need some bitchy bonding session with the ladies. Heh.

So buzz me ladies!

Altho I heard of a fondue & potluck get together realli soon! *leaps in joy*

But for now,

I better get my ass back to werk.

I am typing this in a middle of a meeting mind you.

Oh,

Have I even tell you people that I am no longer werking in Jurong Island?

I am sooo trying to adapt in a busier enviroment now.

Raffles Place,

Can you be more kind to me during lunch hours,

Pretty please?

2008-04-02T09:10:00.005+08:00

I enjoy reading emails sent by my fellow readers out there.

I apologise if I am unable to reply to all,

But trust me,

I read each and every bit of those words sent by you strangers.

As many would have known,

I decided to pen down my thoughts yet again.

Well, you can say that I am eating back on my words,

But to be honest,

I am just penning down my harmless thoughts,

Nothing personal,

Not much details.

I prefer to lay low regards to my life and my relationship as much as I could.

When I penned about my heartbreak the other day,

Its not abt me telling the whole world abt my failing relationship,

Its just abt letting it out,

Cos I noe,

Bottling up my feelings would cause me more damage.

Syukur alhamdulillah,

I received many inspiring emails that keeps me on my feet, still.

Things are much better than it used to be.

We both are doing fine.

Thank you all for the kind words and prayers.

I very much appreciate that.

You see,

Sometimes I feel that strangers can feel you more than you can ever imagine,

The other day,

I received a wonderful email by this amazing stranger,

She shared with me a very inspiring doa to help ease my heartbreak.

I very much feel that I should share it with all,

Cos as much as it helped me,

I hope it will be able to help you people goin thru a hard time as well.

"Ya Allah, jika dia Kau jadikan sebagai teman hidupku,
Kau satukanlah hati kami dalam penuh keimanan dan kasih sayang
dan janganlah kau memisahkan kami.

Tapi jika dia bukan milikku, buanglah dia jauh dari hatiku
dan berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk melupakannya
dan berikanlah kepada aku teman hidup yang sesuai untukku."

I cried while chanting the prayers to myself the other nite,

It made me realise that I should have seek Allah for guidance among anyone else.

I was really upset with myself for losing that little faith in HIM while I was at my lowest.

Syukur,

Things are back to normal.

The scars are very much visible,

But at the end of the day,

I am contented knowing that I am back in touch with the man I love.

I never will noe if he will ever be the one Im gonna marry,

As much dreams I have of building a home with him,

Im pretty sure,

Allah noes whats best for me.

And for now,

I am pretty blessed to have my loved ones around,

Most importantly,

I have that person,

Who holds the key to my heart,

In my life.

We may be far from each other's sight often enuff,

But trust me,

You are always close to my heart,

No matter how far the distance is.

Please keep that in mind.

Let's not get ourselves locked like before,

Shall we?

Salam'

2008-03-31T09:07:00.008+08:00

Let's talk abt insecurity here.

Being insecure in a relationship.

Is it good?

Or it is a sign of not trusting your partner.

You see,

Mr B and myself had a good talk a few days ago.

Well, things are pretty fine now.

It hurts still,

But like the saying goes,

Let time heal all the wounds away.

So yeah,

I sumhow believe in that.

So back to business.

The word is,

INSECURE.

Hmm...

I am pretty much thankful tho,

I have never once feel insecure in a relationship before.

My frens claimed that I trust people,

Too much at times.

That is why I have lots of backstabbing issues in my life. *bluek*

Its not that I dun learnt my lesson.

But that thing been instilled in me for as long as I live!

I trust people,

Very much,

Very easily.

That is why,

I trusted my partners in every relationships.

I trust Mr B,

With all my heart.

I noe just how much he loves me,

Im pretty aware of that.

I have never once doubted him.

I believe in order to go far in a relationship,

Trust is the key word.

Its abt trusting your partner,

Despite anything and everything.

Its abt believing in your other half,

Believeing that he/she will be there for you thru good and bad.

And I am thankful,

I have never doubted my other half,

Even once.

To me,

Seeing is believing,

I dun believe in hearing rumours and remarks.

I only believe when I witness it with my own pair of sight.

That is how I handle my relationship.

Well, its all up to individuals on how they maintain theirs.

If you ask me,

I am a person who gives my partner as much freedom as he wants.

As long as he dun misuse the trust,

I am pretty much fine with things.

I give my man all the time he wants.

I encourage him to have his guys' nite out,

I encourage him to go hang out with his buddies for soccer,

I encourage him to go for drinks and dance the nite away with the boys.

All above,

Permission granted.*smiles*

I dun believe in stopping someone from doing his/her things.

I am someone who encourages my partner to pick up the phone,

Call up your ex,

Say hi and ask her how is she doing,

Meet up with her for for coffee,

Have dinner,

Catch up.

Cos I honestly feel that doesnt mean you are not in a relationship with her anymore,

You should stop caring abt her.

Rite?

Oh call me weird,

Call me insane.

But tats just me.

Im happy with my way.

Altho some may think that I may not seem to care,

But tats not true.

Cos as much as I love the man I'm with,

I believe in giving him as much time on his own as possible.

Being in relationship doesnt mean you have to lock your man in your grounds.

If he wanna turn astray despite all the trust given,

Then its his loss.

As far as Im concerned,

I have been this way for as long as I could remember.

That is just me.

I have never feel being insecured abt my man's past or anything relevant to his past love lives.

Cos tat person came in his life way before I do.

So why muz i be feeling the pinch of his past when he is now moving on well with me?

I respect the past love they both share.

I respect the time they both spent.

I dun have to noe what and where they have their happy moments,

I respect their memories.

I respect the feelings they both shared.

This inferior complex thingy have never once slipped in my mind.

Thank god for that.

So yeah,

I have my flaws,

Lots of it.

But being insecure is never part of it.

A friendly advice to all,

I think in order to move on,

You have to move well.

Not easy to please your partner,

Tell me abt it.

But sometimes,

A sacrfice is all that you need.

So trust is a huge word.

It definitely is.

Im getting on well now.

Thank you all for your well wishes and kind prayers.

And of course,

To those who have been there for me thru out my most difficult time the last week,

Thank you very much for being there.

Now i noe,

Who my true frens realli are.

Salam'

2008-03-29T02:04:00.004+08:00

The exchanged sms'es I had with him was indeed refreshing.

It made me realise that the past should be burried, for good.

As much as it hurts trying to erase some memories of the past,

But I guess in order to move on,

There are things that you should let go.

I never thought it would be this hard,

I am crying while typing this.

Maybe it should be kept deep in my heart.

Only for me to feel,

Only for me to remember,

Only for me to realise its worth.

I should not have tried to convince myself that the past will live.

It made me feel more hopeful all along.

But I come to realise,

Some things should just remain,

As the past.

As MY past.

Sumhow,

I feel glad I did the 'thing' that I did.

I finally picked up all the courage and not hold back no more.

But I am glad,

I am given a chance to let out what I had been keeping all this while

Finally I realise,

Its just not worth it.

Someone shared this sms with me a few days back,

" I am the key, you are the lock. You lost your key, I lost my lock. Now, we are both locked."

When I think abt it,

Maybe its true,

I will always be locked if I am not willing to totally let go.

Thanks to that someone,

I finally realise its worth,

But insyallah,

With the help of all the people that I love,

I will make thru this journey with my head held up high.

If you readers dun really understand the content of this entry of mine,

It is simply understood.

Cos you are NOT in my shoes,

NOT in my position,

And NOT the one typing this at 2am while everyone else is sleeping away.

This entry is dedicated to myself.

Cos nobody understand whats realli happening in my life,

Besides myself.

Period.

*smiles*

Salam

2008-03-27T09:24:00.005+08:00

I believe its not about how hard I fall,

Its abt how hard I will work to pick up the pieces of my life once more.

They say,

What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.

Insyallah,

I will be stronger than yesterday.

Even though

I feel a huge part of my life is missing right now.

But he will be in my mind, in my heart.

In my prayers.

Always.

p.s Thank you all for your emails,sms'es and frenster msgs. Thank you very much.

2008-03-26T08:50:00.005+08:00

I noe,

I used to tell the whole world of me wanting to quit writing.

Im guilty as charged.

Honestly,

I really need to let it out.

Just like how I used to express myself the past years,

When I was totally down & out.

But syukur alhamdulillah,

I am better than I was years before.

Cos I believe,

The faith in me have yet vanished.

So yes,

I am definitely not at my best for now.

But I will never noe what the outcome of this remaining journey of my life would be.

You see,

I have given my all in this relationship of mine.

I have never been this certain in my whole life.

Like i told Frosty the other nite,

I am not confused no more.

I noe what I want in life,

I have made up my mind that he will be the one for me.

But things happen.

I was the happiest woman alive on the 19th of March,

Exactly a week ago.

It was our very first anniversary,

And he was there waiting for me at my new office lobby,

With that bright smile on his face.

We celebrated our anniversary with such simplicity.

He brought me to dinner and we spent quality time over good food.

For the first time in my entire life,

I plan to have flowers & a royal chocolate cake to be delivered to his werkplace on our very special day.

Of course,

I was greatly suprised by the 5o stalks of gorgeous pink roses and a handmade card waiting for me at home.

My anniversary was simply said as,

PERFECT.

I dun noe what went wrong.

Maybe I am not good enough for him.

He is all good and better off with someone else,

I assume.

As much as I hope to start a wonderful life with him,

I guess a part of my past life still haunts the journey we are both taking.

Things were all fine,

Not till one day,

Someone decided to act smart and started a story telling session with him.

The truth hurts, of course.

But I would rather everything happens now than later.

You noe,

I thought I found my happy ending.

But perhaps,

It was never meant to be.

Why did I take the risk of writing this down?

I noe for sure,

I will be brutally mocked by my haters out there.

Most of them out there are waiting anxiously for this day to come.

Well,lets just say my life is not a bed of roses everyday.

I had a great time with Mr B while it lasted.

It was the best relationship ever.

I never felt so secured the arms of any men before.

Not till the day he popped into my life

But you see,

Allah must have reasons for all these to happen.

Oh yes,

I used to flaunt to the whole world abt how happy and blissful I felt before.

So its fair enuff,

I have to let noe that life havent been good for me as well.

I believe in picking up myself and moving on once more.

I been thru worst before.

So i am praying hard to get thru this hurdles in my life.

If this man is not meant for me,

Then I pray he deserve someone even better.

As for me,

I hope that Allah guides me along this life and not let me stray once again.

I used to say,

To love is not to own.

To love means sacrificing yourself for the happiness of the one you love.

I am doing just that.

They say,

If he's yours,

Forever he will be yours to keep.

For now,

I shall keep my fingers crossed.

Wish me well people.

I need lots of that.

As much as this heart is breaking and bleeding,

I am praying hard things will work out well for me.

No, Im not SINGLE as yet.

I am just taking a break from relationships.

Im not keen to on a dating spree or watever you may call it.

Im still in love with one man.

Insyallah,

If he's the one choosen for me,

Then we both belong together.

No matter how far apart we are.

If not,

Then i shall prefer to be by myself,

On my own.

Salam.

2008-03-24T21:18:00.002+08:00

Yes world,

I am officially heart broken.

Pray for me.

Please.

2008-03-23T14:14:00.004+08:00

Maybe its just not meant to be.

Maybe its just supposed to hurt this much.

Maybe I have to live with it and mend my broken heart.

Maybe my ever after will never come.

Maybe the best I ever had never trusted me the way it should be.

Maybe the word appreciate is never in the dictionary.

Maybe this will be the end of a wonderful begininning.

Maybe.

2008-03-18T20:04:00.007+08:00

A year ago,

Happiness came knocking on my door.

A year ago,

Love came overwhelming my heart.

A year ago,

He held my hand and since then have yet let go.

A year ago,

He looked into my eyes and promised to make me happy.

A year ago,

I gave him the key to my heart,

And I hope he will never return that key to me, ever.

Tomorrow marks our very first anniversary together.

I never thought I would fall madly in love like this once more.

Happy 1st my love.

Its been a blessing being with you all this while.

For all the ups and downs that we have been thru,

I thank Allah we are still holding on.

Here's to many more anniversaries together, love.

So as you noe,

As long as we both trust & respect one another,

Insyallah,

Nobody can ever come in between us.

Thank you for being not only the man in my life,

Thank you for also being my best fren.

I love you.

With all my heart.

2008-03-16T20:20:00.005+08:00

Dear Ed & Seri,

Thank you for inviting us over last nite.

We hope you both love the gift Kamal, Frosty, Mr B and myself got for you.

Once again,

Happy Birthday to you both!!!

And Ed,

I seriously feel that Frosty did a great job with the collage she made for you on behalf of all of us,

Dun you think so?

Now, who's birthday is it next?

2008-03-13T14:14:00.002+08:00

We were invited for a photoshoot last week.

The pics turned out brilliant!

It was a kind invitation from one very talented photographer.

We spent the whole Saturday afternoon in the sun from one place to another.

But no no,

It was not pictures of Mr B and myself.

Check out this one.

Tats just some of it.

A real stunner,

Isn't it?

2008-03-13T12:49:00.003+08:00

Ever wish for a fancy mobile?

Ever hope you own a mobile as classic as N95 at more than half the normal cost?

Brand new.

Comes in a box with an extra battery, earpiece and charger.

Hurry! I only have a few pieces left!!

Interested?

Email me.

lady_naz82@hotmail.com

2008-03-11T09:27:00.004+08:00

Spent a lovely Sunday with Mr B watching our very own local movie.

Finally, a local movie we all can be very proud of.

Yes love,

I extracted this quote from the movie,

If you are not too long,

I will wait for you all my life.

Let's countdown to our 1st anniversary,

Shall we?

2008-03-07T11:23:00.003+08:00

One Of The Many Reasons Why I Quit Blogging.

(click to enlarge)

I think i have a stalker.

So care enough to introduce yourself, if you are not one?

Im contactable.

Via email.

2008-03-06T09:35:00.004+08:00

MAFIAS INC. 2008

To those who thought we went our separate ways,

Sorry to burst your bubble.

We are still 'united as one'.

Credit to that anonymous someone who labelled us with that Mafia nick.

We are definitely proud of it.

Rite Mafia babes?

Heart you bunch lots!

2008-03-05T13:30:00.002+08:00

I miss the friendly people.

I miss the cosy palace.

I miss the cool breezy weather.

I miss the shopping spree.

I miss all abt Dubai when i read Trisya's entry.

*sigh*

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Dear Dubai,

I miss you so.

*sob*

2008-03-03T08:44:00.006+08:00

Thanks folks for the wonderful leap year!!!

Life is more meaningful with the presence of you lovely bunch.

Thank you for making me believe that true friends still exist.

Yes, lets grow old together.

Love ya all.

2008-02-29T13:25:00.004+08:00

Its abt accepting each other's flaws.

Its abt complete trust.

Its abt making the past history.

Its abt living and knowing that we belong to each other.

Its abt playing blind and dumb to those assholes.

Its abt you, me and our lives.

Its abt love.

We dun owe anybody any explaination abt us.

Im quite certain abt that.

Cos its all abt us.

Only us.

2008-02-28T13:55:00.002+08:00

Love is just a word till someone comes along and give it a meaning.

2008-02-26T08:59:00.004+08:00

People come and go in your life.

Some are being missed by yours truly.

Some are just not worth my tears.

Please dun be such a pain in the ass,

Just becos your life is in a mess.

We are still very much in love,

All thanks to you.

And yes,

This one is definitely dedicated to you.