My blog is worth $32,743.32.
How much is your blog worth?
So, shall i start ranting now? Heh.
First and foremost,
Let me convey my greatest gratitude to those who sent emails, frenster messages & words on the tagboard for me.
I am truly touched by all the efforts made.
I managed to browse thru some emails last nite but have yet replied to them.
Please give me some time,
I promise i will reply to each and everyone of you out there.
I can never put in words just how much those mails and messages meant to me.
Still,
I never expected that they are people out there who can relate really well to my entries.
Some express their concerns.
Some gave me words of comfort.
Some even persuaded me to throw the thoughts of wanting to quit blogging.
Even last nite when i chatted with Love and Kak Muna,
My 2 angels convinced me that i should not give up this humble blog of mine,
At least for their sake,
Thats what they claimed.
Im realli at lost to be honest.
I enjoy blogging.
I enjoy posting beautiful pictures of my family and frens.
I enjoy sharing the love of frenship.
I enjoy sharing the faith i regain from Allah.
I for sure enjoy sharing all the wonderful things in my life.
But often enuff,
My words are taken the wrong way.
By penning those wonderful things,
I am labelled as boastful, showing off and of course,
I am popularly known as being FAKE.
Well,
I heard many many things being said abt me via blogging.
But i played dumb all this while.
I told myself to hear only the good things.
I told myself as long as my conscience is clear,
Heck what those people have to say abt me.
At the end of the day,
I live my life on my own.
I dun owe anyone of you haters a living.
Like i mentioned before,
I am strong enuff if all humiliations were slammed on me.
I have been thru worst,
So all this doesn't mean much anyway.
But i got all devastated when you people drag my frens and family into this turmoil.
Fair enuff,
Some of you hates me.
That i solely accept.
But doesnt mean you have to hate my frens and people around me as well rite?
Doesnt mean if im bad,
They are bad like me as well rite??
So please,
Let me take all the blame, slanders and humiliations.
Dun ever drag those innocent ones with me.
I am guilty as charged for writing my own words.
Dun get those people around me involved for things they didnt do.
I apologise if my words may have offended anyone of you.
I apologise once again if my writings may have affected some parties out there.
Cos as far as im concerned,
I blog from my heart.
Even if you people may have thoughts of me being fake,
That is your say.
I respect.
But for some who appreciate my humble writings,
This blog is definitely meant for all of us to share and spread love.
I blog for one very main reason,
I blog cos i wish to share.
I blog cos i want those broken hearted people out there to realise,
You are not on your own.
I was down and out before.
I was left all alone fixing my broken heart.
I was humiliated time and again.
Trust me,
Till this very day,
I doubt i have any more dignity to spare.
My life is like a soap opera all along.
I lost so many things in life.
I can never have them back, thats for sure.
As much regrets i have in me,
Im beginning to accept the fact and move on once more.
Moving on is never easy, trust me on that.
I was even made a laughing stock when my love life got hay wired.
I lost my best frens after years of frenship.
I lost the man i love after years of sacrifices.
I lost someone i noe who loves me more than anything else in the world, yet i took him for granted.
I almost, almost lost faith.
But syukur alhamdulillah,
I am back on my feet once more.
I penned my most embarrassing life stories with all,
Cos i believe,
Nobody is born perfect in this world.
I managed to continue living,
All thanks to undying love from you strangers, frens and of course,
My famliy.
When i received emails from readers who appreciate what i write,
I thank Allah for letting me help them in a way or another.
Blogging is a beautiful way of expressing yourself.
But it becomes ugly when people out there dun respect your views and feelings.
Yes,
I do wanna quit blogging after i saw those tags slammed on my best fren.
I am that defensive towards people i care.
Therefore,
I truly mean what i said.
I dun wish to hurt people that i love due to my writings.
As i said before,
I appreciate those emails and kind messages,
But im sticking to my words still,
One more time,
If ever anyone of you haters try to humiliate any of my frens, family or loved ones,
I will not take the crap no more.
This blog will be down for good.
So for as long as it last,
Learn to appreciate and respect other people's possession.
You will never noe how painful it is,
Cos you have never been thru it.
Try putting yourself in my shoes,
Just for a day.
Then tell me,
How does it realli feels when the people you love gets humiliated becos of you.
I will not tolerate all this drama no more.
Enuff when you haters put my6 dignity at stake,
I will not let you have the chance to do that to my loved ones.
Remember i was even labelled a divorcee with a kid to boost?
Now,
Just how much further can that get later on?
We shall wait and see.
Till then.
Salam'