Wednesday, December 05, 2007 @ 8:49 AM
For the last 8 months,
Life is slowly picking up for me.
I admit it was realli hard for me almost a year back.
As aimless and crazy some people claimed i was,
That i can never deny.I was even on medication,I nearly decided to seek counselling.But Allah loves me still i guess.HE gave me new faith,new hopes & a brand new life to start with.I begin everything back from scratch.New set of frens,New set of hobbies,New set of dining places,Even a new man beside me.I decided to leave the past behind, Learn from my mistakes and start afresh.But never once will i deny what a bitch i was years back.No regrets. I learn it the hard way i supposed.Without going thru all those heartbreaks,I dun think i can ever be this strong.Watever reason it may be,I strongly believe that everything that happened,Have reasons behind it.I am still labelled by things i did in the past,But how can i ever run away from it rite?Tats the consequences i have to face for my past actions.I have become numb i supposed.As much as i wanted so much to move on,Sometimes i am still taken back by those remarks due to my past.Im glad tho,Despite reading and hearing all the nasty things being said abt me,My frens still stood by me,Never once failed to comfort me with kind words,Accept me with open arms and showered me with so much love & care.But one thing that touched me the most,Seeing Mr B still standing firm with his decision till this very day.It must be hard for him, i noe.Dating a gal with so much contradictions like me.Worst still,
When words spread around claiming im after his family's wealth.*sigh*Yet he stood still beside me,Sharing his shoulder for me to cry on,Giving me encouragement everyday so that i wont lose hope.Our relationship have been smooth sailing so far.I have never been with someone this long without much conflicts.Its been a blessing, realli.Mr B is indeed a god send.One of the many reason why i am still kicking till this very day,Becos i have him by my side.Never once he uttered his disappointment on me.He makes me feel good everyday.Our dates have been marvellous,He introduced me to a whole new meaning in life.I am glad his family loves me like their own.I am most glad when he got along so well with my cliques.All even better when all his frens get along tremendously well with me too.So in this life currently,I have no complaints.For i stick to my word when i say,When Allah took something away from me,HE replaced it with something even better.Even if i have to seek sympathy to gain frenship and love,I'm really glad i did. Cos they have been the best so far.They showed me true meanings of frenship,The values of life i learnt from them is priceless.Thank you all for giving me so much new meanings in life,You noe who you are,For that,My greatest gratitude.
To you Mr B,Thank you for staying by me for the past few months,We never noe what the future will be for the both of us,But watever it may be,I thank Allah for giving us a chance to share a life together.Thank you for the unconditional love,I can never thank you enuff with words,But i do hope,You noe that i appreciate all that you have done all this while.
To exchanging of emails,
Then those sms'es moment,
Till our first date,
To this very day,
Its been all good i must say. *smiles*
Everyone deserves second chances in life.
I never regretted leaving everything behind to start a brand new life.
Judge me all you want,
Be it good or bad,
Cos as far i am concerned,
I believe only the one that matters will affect my life,
To those who dun matter,
Your comments are not needed, thank you.
Learn from your mistakes,
Have faith in Allah,
Treasure your family.
Insyallah,
Life would be better the 2nd time round.
*smiles*
Its Wednesday everyone!
Take care.
Salam'
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